TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️: harassment, SA
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jihan 🕊
10:29 pm
rayne
my parents had their divorce
when I was 8 yrs old
hindi ako binibigay ni
mama kahit na I want to
go with dad since hindi
ko siya masyadong
kalapit
I had no choice but
to obey here tho
she treated me well
hanggang ngayon naman
maayos trato niya sakin
even when my step father
came to her life
hindi niya ako pinabayaan
kahit na nagka anak sila na bago
but...
I am sexually molested
by my step father at the age of 9
I actually thought it was
normal since I am just kid
hindi big deal sakin
kahit hinahawak hawakan
niya na ako sa kahit anong
parte ng katawan ko
but suddenly one night
wala si mama and he entered
my room kahit na tulog ako
I was almost rape
kung hindi dumating si
papa hindi ko na alam
kung anong nangyari
that's the reason why
he gave me this house
we told my mother about
it pero hindi siya naniwala
its fine tho, I don't really
care about her as long as
my father believes me
kaya hindi rin ako masyadong
malapit sa guys dahil takot ako
but at 18 I had a boyfriend
it was perfect for me
nawala yung takot sa dibdib ko
I thought he was different
from my step father
pero ganon pala talaga ano?
in a relationship hindi mo
talaga maiiwasang maghangad
pa ng sobra
he asked me to do it
with him pero nung tumanggi
ako nagalit siya
he suddenly turned
into someone I do not
know
right at those moment
I thought it was over for
me
but days and lime came
ang galing ng timing nila ano?
my dad came in time as
well as my friends
kaya i'm sorry
for not being ready enough
to enter a relationship
with you
I am still healing
honestly I don't even
know if I am healing
you can see my tremblings
every now and then right?
up until now I am still affected
I'm scare, so scared that
I look at every guy the same
as my step father
YOU ARE READING
waste the night (completed)
Romancean epistolary wherein rayne, a woman who's afraid of commitment randomly talked to a guy every 10 o'clock up until dawn, not knowing that he's the friend of her friend's ex-boyfriend who you've been interacting with for a few times.
