firefly

million years ago

inspired by million years ago - adele
This chapter will be based on Eren's pov. Contains self harm, depression and other trigging topics.

Eren grew up with love. A loving family, warm food on the table, and laughter that filled his house. He was a strong willed, passionate, and impulsive kid. And his parents were very much in love. His mother Carla, cherished him with all her love and gave him lessons that he still uses in his life now. While he did get along with his father, Grisha, he was definitely a momma's boy. It was until one of Eren's worse fears came true. The worse fear of any loving family, which is a love one's death. Carla, Eren's mother had brutally passed away. Causing a shut down in the Jeager family.

[play in this shirt by the irrepressibles]
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"Did you hear what happened to Grisha's wife?" a man spoke. "Yes it's truly a tragic they were such a perfect family" the other man responded. "Poor child has to go on without his mother" a women blurted out. "Grisha has a stable job im sure they'll be okay" another women latched on with harsh words. It was Carla's funeral. A rainy day that Eren would never forget.

Shut up. Make it stop. Eren kept repeating those words. He crouched down, tilting his head down. A sound of laughter bursted from his mouth.

"Oh my god is that boy really laughing? After his mother just died!" a lady stated, putting her hand over her mouth in shock. "It seems like their family wasn't perfect after all" a man spoke, clearing his throat.

What they didn't know was that Eren was crying between his laughter of disbelief. The fact that your life could be ruin in just one day, he couldn't believe it. He couldn't believe that his mother, who cradled him in her arms was now just a lifeless body who will never be able to touch him with warmth again. Eren didn't understand why and he would never understand how life could be so unfair. That night, Eren changed forever and so did Grisha.

Grisha spent less and less time with Eren. He used his job as a distraction from his reality, the reality of him losing the love of his love forever. Whenever Grisha saw Eren he was harsh and cold hearted. Which was the opposite of what Eren needed. Which resulted in him having serve depression and ptsd. Following his stages of grief, Eren became closed off, to his close ones, to his family members, to everyone.

As the years went on Grisha became successful in life. Soon people figured out he had a son. And soon that son faced pressure. The pressure of Grisha and the pressure of society. Grisha threatened Eren with money to get him into a medical department in college. Eren had no interest in the medical field, in fact he had no interests at all. He just lived, he was just there. A living person on earth with no living soul. That's who Eren was. And when things got rough he resulted in self harm.

"Eren, your teacher called saying you've been skipping out! We didn't agree to this, Eren Jeager!" Grisha yelled in anger. "You already make me go along with this belief of me following your foot steps isn't that enough!?" Eren screamed back in frustration. "You think that's enough? I've done everything I can to protect this family. I brought home money to keep you from starving!" Grisha spoke with bitterness. "You think that's enough father? You think money is happiness? You think mom would be proud?" Eren responded to Grisha's harsh remarks. His tone with pure disappointment and resentment. "Go to your room, we're done with this conversation. Go to school and I'll pay you" Grisha said in a whisper.

Eren clenched his fist in anger. He walked to his room and slammed the door. It was days like these when he truly missed his mother.