The world in my Dreamland

1.How it started

Two years before,
          I was having one of the most difficult nights of my life.

It all started on the evening of an April when my dad started having a dull breathing problem . The day was quite ominous with cries of cats and dogs, all around the house. I almost got bitten by a snake,which i killed later. But i didn't see it's carcasses.it just vanished infront of my eyes. Dad started hyperventilating and  got severe but we couldn't make it on time to the hospital . And what is mysterious is how he walked till the last step of the pavement and just as he stepped to the road, he fell, more likely, sank to my mom's arm. I still remember he was looking at me with a mild smile and his eyes were shining with tears. I didn't want to believe what is happening infront of me. feeling his pulse weakening,his hands and feet turning cold,body going stiff . I prayed to someone or anyone to please treat him and make him better and my fears won't come true. After they left for the hospital,i knelt down crying ,smacking my head on the ground. But 2 hrs later, the only news i got is" he left us". He died on the pathway, looking into my eyes,with those bright smiles.I don't know what he wanted to convey ," Did he wanted to tell me something!??" "Did he regret not saying goodbye!?" "Was he in pain!?" These thoughts continued to spiral in my head for many days and nights and i regressed. I started having sleeplessness, hating crowds , avoiding my family and started taking responsibility beyond me which would take my mind out of everything surrounding me...still it was the same old pain and suppression... My life was already a mess with all the failures and helplessness i was having.. and with losing dad ,i lost sanity. My happy and protected life took a turnover.
One day, i thought, to put an end to this. I wanted to run away from the pain . I  walked out of the house and started running without looking back.
Not knowing how long, i ran untill i could no more and looked around to see ..i am in middle of nowhere and it's only darkness around me... I can't feel anything.... Not breathing, no pulse..but somehow i felt more awake. I felt weightless. My eyes were tightly shut but i could see more clearly than they were open. I started floating in the air... my body suspended in the air and  face to face with me... I tried touching it... But i couldn't move have my hands or legs it felt that i had none... i felt like a wisp of smoke. Suddenly there was a light and it formed into a mirror in between. both sides of the mirror showed something... I Tried to go closer which I knew would be futile.... But... Something pushed me closer to the mirror . I saw my body through the translucent part....and there was a blue light transmitting through my body... And... My eyes were open with the same strange blue light on them .. and i could see both sides of the mirror as if i was halved.