AUTHORS NOTE: all characters in this fic are 18 and over unless stated otherwise. This fic also assumes that you've played both deltarune chapters one and two.
change is like a horror movie.
you'll be scared at first and for most of it, but if you're a fan of the genre, it's exhilarating.
like the fact that i'm a human growing up in a town of monsters. I used to hate myself for it and tried every chance I could to fit in. I even had a pair of horns on a headband i'd wear every day. I'm kind of confused as to where they are, though. goes to show how much they were obscured out my life,, I guess I don't miss them too much. I've accepted my species now. God that sounds dumb. I guess I've just acknowledged the fact of my identity.
Growing up, the iconic bully of my school always intrigued me, I mean who wouldn't be starstruck by a 5'10 handsome lizard girl. Apparently not just me, as my best friend Noelle was also enamored by the violent and gorgeous tyrant. I let Noelle have Susie though, up until Catti asked her out. I couldn't see them being a couple before, but they are pretty cute. I mean, who wouldn't awe at some goth/prep sapphics ?
I couldn't help but feel all tingly-worked up thinking about when susie would shove me into my locker. Every time she practically almost bit off my face, i'd stare at her tongue, thinking about what she could do to me with it. Perhaps, penetrating every orifice of mine. I'd watch videos of what was so taboo, monster/human romance, physically intimate ones. What the fuck am I thinking? Even more importantly, what would SHE think. I think it'd be a win win situation, considering i'd enjoy the disgust and degradation and be excited at her eagerness if not. She was like a rogue out of a storybook. And me? I'm just the creepy kid at the end of the block.
I guess our bully-victim dynamic has died out a bit after we've hung out in groups at school together, but I know her view of me as a major creepshow still hasn't faded. She isn't friendly now, but on occasion she's there for me. I'd never considered my sexuality before, but I'm only really attracted to girls and other non binary people. I guess I'm lucky that my parents didn't know anything about human anatomy, considering they didn't know if i was a "Boy" or a "Girl", and I just so happened to end up as non-binary. Not everyone agrees with my genderqueer lesbian identity, but I don't give a rat's ass. I don't know if Susie likes girls, let alone nonbinary people such as I.
I'm out to Noelle though, she's my best friend. She wasn't surprised, maybe her gaydar is better than my own. I'm just a stupid monster attracted lesbian freak of nature,, It's very well that a relationship with susie may not be healthy, but god that makes it even more appealing in my head.
I'm no short of fucked up.
I wake up to the shrill, jarring ironic rickroll ringtone of my phone. Half-asleep, I answer. It's Noelle.
"Hey Noelle, what's up?" I mumble, rubbing my freshly opened eyes.
"Jockington just told me he's holding a house party tonight, he's inviting you to the gig, I wanna pick you up and take you there. Catti'll be at work so she can't come.
By the way are you alright Kris? you've been spacing out more than usual lately."
I sigh, my mind still dwelling on Susie.
"I'm alright, don't worry about it. Just a bit sleep deprived recently."
That wasn't entirely a lie, considering I'd been staying up late fantasizing about a certain purple bully.
"E-Erm, okay." She sounded a bit uncertain, but who wouldn't be. After all, she knows I sleep in class; So why would I be deprived? Not my best excuse, but it beats telling your best friend the fact you wanna get pegged by a dino chick who calls you a freak every time you see her.
"Well I'm thinking i'll pick you up on my moped at roughly 4pm, 'Kay?"
"Affirmative."
Gotta make sure to pack my helmet in my crossbody messenger bag. Noelle is always nice enough to give me a ride, I never know how to thank her.
Stretching, I get out of bed and slip out of my pajamas, down the stairs and into the shower. I wonder what it would be like to shower or maybe even visit a bathhouse with susie, sponging her tough, soapy scales. I drop the bar of soap I'd held in the sheer realization of my perverted thought. Trying to get my mind off it, I lather my hair in my apple scented kids' tear-free shampoo. I'm almost out of high school, I don't know why my mom still buys it for me. Anyway, I then of course wash the soap out. Nevertheless, I towel off, button up my cream colored blouse, and put on my striped pullover sweater.
The school day was uneventful, though I suppose I can't be too sure about that considering I was asleep for most of it.
Immediately after the bell rings, I scurry home and fix myself up. Sometimes when I wanna look good it takes awhile to get ready, so I started in advance. I put on a relatively simple outfit; a white dress shirt, a baby yellow jacket over my shoulder in case I get cold, white boots, a light yellow belt, and my brother's comically too-big-for-me electric blue flared pants from his highschool prom. I'm then startled by the familiar sound of Noelle's electric scooter. I rush out the door, I'm then greeted by the pretty deer girl, her hair in bunched up pigtails. She really could pull off some frumpy clothes. It'd crossed my mind, the thought about asking her out before. But I guess there's no point now, she's happy with Catti. I slowly walk to Noelle as I put on my helmet. She climbs onto the bike, inviting me with a sweet, brace-filled grin. I hop on, embracing her close as to not fall.
It'll be a long night.
