Bad Boy

Secrets Revealed

Last night I couldn't really sleep. I couldn't stop thinking about Brandon and what he said. I did kiss him back then told him I can't do it, but for some reason I just can't stay away from him. I just can't get him out of my head and a part of me wants to just forgive him and be normal, I hate myself for that. I got to school feeling like crap, I just threw on some sweats and a hoodie today. I walk into my first class and see Rowan and Hailey waving to me, I walk over to them and sit down. "Hey, are you okay" Hailey asked me. "Yeah I'm fine" I say looking down. They continue talking as I just daze off, thoughts overtaking my brain. My thoughts were inturrupted by the one person who was in my thoughts. Brandon walks through the door not even looking in my direction. He walks over to his group of assholes and takes a seat. I sit there starring at him, I guess just waiting for him to look at me. Apparently, I wasn't anything to begin with. I went through the whole class just letting all of the information being taught fly over my head. For lunch I decided to go out under the bleachers to sit alone. I love sitting with Hailey and Rowan but today I just don't have the energy to talk to anyone. I was going through social media when someone walked up and sat in front of me. I look up to see some kid with short dark brown hair and brown eyes. "Sorry to interrupt but I'm new" he says awkwardly. "Oh hi, I'm Hera" I say giving him a quick smile. "I'm Jack" he says smiling back. We continues talking for a while and he's actually pretty chill. He lived in Washington for most of his life and he likes baseball and football. Which, I like both of those things. The bell rang for the next class and we ended up swapping numbers and started to whatever we had next. We ended up talking while we walked and when I went to turn into my class, he did too. We chuckled realizing we had the same class. We walked in and picked two seats in the back. I ended up telling him what he had missed for the class, as this is his first day. We ended up having a project today so I offered to be his partner so I can help him. The rest of the day went by not so bad ever since I starts talking to Jack. We decided he would come over tonight to work on our project so we can get it over with early. Right now I am at the local coffee shop sitting at a table alone. I look up to see Ash, he's from my school. "Hey Hera, you okay?" he says. "I'm fine" I say, I don't even really know him that well. He takes a seat in front of me and looks at me for a second before speaking. "Listen, I know your not fine. You can tell me what's going on inside your head" he says nicely. "No offense Ash, but I don't really know you" I say. "I know, but I know what your going through. Almost the same thing happened to me last year. I was dating this girl Elysia. Thing were great and we liked each other but one day she just ghosted me then started dating another guy. That same week, she told everyone I raped her and was abusive. Everyone believed her and I lost everything. My friends, no girls even look in my direction anymore" he says taking a deep breath. "Wow. I'm so sorry Ash" I say in disbelief. I didn't know him well but I could tell he's just not someone to do anything like that. We kinda grew up in the same schools since 2nd grade. "Your turn" he says. "Well, you saw that picture" I say looking down. "Yeah" he says waiting for an explaination. "We only kissed. But everyone took it way out of preportion and Brandon just didn't understand that that made me mad and upset. He came to my house yesterday and tried to apologize but I was just so angry and I yelled at him and somehow we ended up kissing and I told him I didn't want to do this again and he got mad and left. We haven't spoken since" I breathe out. "Well, why did you kiss him again?" he says in confusion. "I don't know honestly" I say putting my head in my hands. "Well, if you want my opinion it sounds like you like him and he may like you" he says. I shoot my head up and give him a confused look. "Are we talking about the same Brandon?" I say. "Listen, I know that he can come off as an asshole a lot but when you get to know him, he's just a big goof ball. He likes sports and food. His favorite resterant is literally mcdonalds. He's just a normal guy Hera" he says. Wow, thinking of Brandon actually being nice to someone and not making fun of them. Couldn't even imagine it if I tried. "Maybe you just need to admit out loud that you like him to find out if you really do" he says. "I'm not going to do that" I say crossing my arms. "If you say it and you feel nothing then you'll know you don't like him but if you do..." I cut him off "I don't". "Then prove it" he says smirking. I roll my eyes and sit up. "What do I even say" I say annoyed. "Say that you like him" he says still amused. I sigh "Fine" I really honestly didn't even wanna know, because it wouldn't ever work out. "I like Brandon" I whisper looking down. "What was that?" he says leaning closer with his hand to his ear. I hesitate not wanting to say it again. "I like Brandon" I say louder than intended. Right after saying it I felt this tingling all throughout my body, but was interupted by a too familiar voice, "What?". I look behind me to reveal a very confused looking Brandon Darrow. Shit. I just sit there stunned, not knowing what to say. "What did you say?" he repeats, waiting for an answer. I look over at Ash seeing him also as uncomfterable as me. I take one more look at Brandon before getting up and speeding out of that cafe. I don't know why I am so afraid to admit how I feel. Telling him that I like him after everything, including telling him I didn't like him. Ash was right, I did like Brandon but could it ever work is the question now. I just don't think I can deal with all of the heartbreak or arguing. It's just really hard to keep a good and healthy relationship when your not really mentally stable.I'm not sure what I'm going to do anymore.