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Sehun

"I'm being intoxicated in the happiness that shined bright for a moment

I must have been distracted for a moment by the memories' light

You're already at the place I can't reach."

- Thunder, EXO
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Sometimes, we get the feeling of over-excitement, but the feeling disappears as quick as it comes and we turns to disappointment. You have to learn, that people may have a good heart, but end up hurting you in the most indirect way they could. And if they never notice now, they'll never notice it ever. It's like an abyss of sadness. Once you fall, it's endless.
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Sehun

I woke up this morning with bed hair and a fanbulous scowl on my face, as a faint knocking woke me from my slumber. Who the heck visits someone on holidays in the morning? It's just simply rude. I stumbled my way to the front of the door and opened it only to see the person I least expected to step on my front door.

"M-Minhee?" Gosh my mouth, It's so embarassing.

"Sorry for disturbing you this early, I just wanted to ask if you can help me with something." She asked shyly with a gentle voice. How mesmerizing. If only I can listen to it every day and night.

"It's okay, I just woke up anyways. What is it that you wanted me to help?" I asked back, brushing my hair in the process. Embarrassing Oh Sehun! I regret everything. She looked up with those deep chestnut brown orbs and beamed before her melodious voice flowed through her mouth.

"Really? I know we're not that close but, can you tell me Luhan's phone number?" And there goes my heart again. I wanted to frown at that moment but I held it back. Sometimes I wonder why I am doing this.

"O-Oh, Uhm, sure I'll send it to you." Damn my stutters.

When she finally went, I closed the door and slid down 'til I reached the floor. I sat there in silence as thoughts spun in my mind. I know that I brought this upon myself, but why? I don't get why.

She was absolutely perfect. Am I not good enough? Was it too difficult to spare a thought about me? I scoffed. I sound like a broken hearted teenage fangirl. Actually, I don't think there's too much of a difference.

Our favourite person, too far from our reach.

So much for a holiday morning and imagined happy endings.

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I have never once believed in any fairy tales and Disney stories. You know why? They're all just lies. There's no such thing as a 'happily ever after'. People would say that I am a pessimist. But soon they'll realise, nothing is perfect, even if it seems like it.
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Sunjeong

It was still a peaceful night when I could finally focus on something else and put my worries at the back of my head. One of the worries were Sehun of course, he was always there, at the edge of my conciousness.

He hadn't show up for the classes for a week already. What's that kid up to? He was avoiding everyone, every single living creature that he could. It so painfully obvious why he was doing it.

I never stopped to wonder about what he's thinking. Probably about the love of his life. I scoffed.

Did something happen between him and Minhee? I don't know. I didn't want to meddle with his business although it has somehow became mine without me noticing.

He would get all depressed, and cry like there's no end to it. I've seen him like that before. He crouches on the floor holds on to his knees and cries for dear life. It was a disheartening sight. There was so much drama in his life that I didn't want in my life. I guess I dug my own grave.

I guess the most I could do is to stand by him. I am very sure that this time , it was no joke. Usually it only takes him an hour or two to get rid of that depression but one week? It took too long this time. Something really did happen to him, I would look for him til' the end of the world.

I tried, but only resulted in endless unanswered calls. I looked for him in his dorms, asking his friends, but he wasn't there and they didn't know. But I think I have a hunch on where he is.

You see, when he gets sad, he goes to his grandparents. I've met them, because of the same situation. His grandparents understood everything he is going through. They are good people, I agree with that. I was with him during that period of time where he thought he was useless. His grandparents were worried about him. Therefore, they told me to take care of him. Once again, I promised them that I would. I never. I repeat , never break a promise.

And when I finally realised , I collected my phone, wallet and car keys and dashed out of campus. It was a 4 hour drive to Sehun's grandparents' house. And if he's not there, I swear I'm going to beat the daylight out of him when I see him.

He better have a fucking good reason for this.
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It's already dusk when I reached their house. There wasn't a lot of people living in that area, and I liked that. It was quiet and peaceful, I made sure to take note to move into rural areas when I get married and grow old with my loved one. I stepped out of my car , and at the same time, Granpa Oh came out too. He seemed surprised and shot me a warm smile. They were like a second family that I never had. I treat them like my real family anyway.

He came over and hugged me. Grandpa Oh's hugs never dissapoint.

"What are you doing here?" He asked tenderly with that husky voice.

"Just seeing if Sehun is here." I answered back politely.

"He is inside actually." He said as he heaved a deep sigh right after.

"Something happened again didn't it. I guess you should come in and eat with us, he's been feeling better though. I think he would be happy seeing you here." He smiled and led me into the old wooden cottage. I gave him a smile and sighed in relief that Sehun is actually here.

Now all I need is that fucking good reason.

I stepped in the cottage , trailing behind Grandpa Oh. I could see Grandma Oh cooking dinner and I hugged her from the back, delighted to see her again. She was equally as surprised as Grandpa Oh.

"Sunjeong? What brings you here?" She asked while we both sat down on those old flower patterned sofas that totally screamed 'love' over it. Those kinds that are fluffy and gives you a warm and homey feeling.

"Sehun of course." I quirked the corners of my lips a little while she held my hands in her wrinkled ones. She nodded while pointed her finger up. I looked up to where she pointed and nodded in understanding.

I headed up he stairs. When I finally got to the second floor, I slowly walked along the corridor, trying to be as quiet as I could. I reached in front of the door that was painted with baby blue paint that has slightly faded now, and slowly pushed open the door. The said boy was sitting on his bed while looking at something that seemed like a photobook.

"Sehun?" I spoke up first.

When he turned to me, I could see the emotion of surprise across his face. His lips slowly tugging up into one of those eye smiles he does and it unknowilingly made me smile too.