Dairy of a angry wolf

April 8th 1987

Dear Bob,

Okay I know whoever reading my personal stay out journal, book thingy yes I gave my book a name Bob. Only reason I am even writing this dam thing is to get this all out of my head. I am a unmated wolf and needless to say glad. I see how things can be. My township is holding a mating celebration thing tomorrow. Needless to say Bob I am nervus. After 20 years think on it I have no idea if I have a mate and dam well don't care but my folks do. Why does it matter I will never know. My nerves are killing me I fear of having a panic attack during the celebration where I have to stand there and blindfolded is the worst. The forever question of if I have a mate will they be kind or even try to understand me. I hope so I am only turned 21 for Lupa's sake and never will I ever just be some breeding bitch dog that is locked away with only that fate. Oh yeah random nosy person who for some reason has stole Bob I am a young wolf. My name is Mia and I am 21 as of today dam my luck. Wish I had another year. Every year on April 9th a celebration thingy for all young girls are held if they are 21-30 to hopefully have a male clam you as their mate. I hate this shit I really do like who is to say a female can't find their own mate. What if a girl likes other girls. I know this is to share bonds with other packs and whatnot and your lucky if you get to stay with yours. But just what if. Or what if a guy likes a guy. Nothing is wrong with that I am just stating what is so wrong with this shit. Love is love and a mate is a mate no matter what gender.

I could rant all night about this and how equality needs to be found no matter what flavor you are. But alass it falls onto deaf ears as the Alpha's will not hear of it. I tried today trust me but all I got was you are old enough to know how pups are made. To have a strong pack blah blah foookin blah.

Dam if only once a female was a Alpha things would be so different. Or so I can wish.

Bye for now Bob one hell of a day tomorrow after all