FUCK LOVE

Chapter 1

How did I find myself here. All I could remember was I used to be tough. But now I sat on the cold floor of my bedroom leaning on the wall right at the corner of the room. Thoughts, memories,black holes, all in my head. I couldn't cry, I was drained out of all the strength I had left to cry. And he just left like that. I couldn't stop him. Not even if I could, because I wanted him gone,with the wind just the same way he had come.
Two Years Earlier
There was silence as I stated into his dark eyes. Those confused,blood shot eyes. How calm his face was. That look would send any girl running the opposite direction. But I stood there and smiled. The path was empty and no sound seemed to peirce into this ball of magic that had wrapped around us. N my heart was beating. I could hear it. I wasn't scared, I just couldn't explain it. He didn't smile back bt I could tell,he felt it too.

This was the first time meeting him. And I was in love or so I thought.

My name is Daina. Where I live is pretty complicated. See my parents move every month from  city to city, country to country, all for a reason. We were the most wanted criminals in LA. My dad in particular was a drug dealer and had just been busted at his work shop some years back,2010. I was 13 by then. My mom was well an assassin. Hired only to kill those filthy rich assholes who weren't needed in this world anymore. And sadly my dad was one of them. The story of how they met was pretty awesome.

My mom whose real name was Ziad Hauler, was hired to kill my dad. My dad, Haime Taura, with his good looks lured my mom into his web and they fell in love. It's a long story cut short.

Now me the product of their love was ten times the nightmare they were. I could shoot straight into someone's heart with my eyes closed by the time I was ten.

I never had any real friend from that faithful day when one cop! One fucking cop a woman, undercover, had gained dad's favor and my at most trust and love as my best friend, betrayed us. We we're lucky to eacape but she was always on our track wherever we went. Detective Hally Boerka. I wanted to find her and kill her with my bear hands,but I was always surrounded by a bunch of guards. Shit it sucked.

Now we landed in Chicago. A cool place. Though I couldn't explore it. I couldn't risk getting known at all costs. We rented a huge spacipus room in a grand hotel. I know, I know, we would get caught right? But naah, this hotel belonged to one of dad's most trusted ally and my favourite person, Uncle Benamont. His name might seem sunny to anyone who hadn't met him yet.

That wasn't so. He was the coldest person you'd ever meet. He had a soft spot for me though. Never figured why. I ran to hug him when I saw him. He spread out his arms for the embrace.

"Look at you! You've grown. A splitting image of your father. "
He smiled warmly at me as he strocked my hair.
Smiling back I gave him a small punch to the shoulder.
"Ouch! What was that for?"
"You forgot about my 18th birthday present! You'd promised."

I crossed my arms n put on a serious face. He hugged me again. "Sorry child. Just that the bursting delayed it all. Your present is up stairs in your room. My guards will guide you there." I straightened up and kissed his cheek. "Thanks Uncle "

This me walks up the stairs guided by my guards and also uncle's guards to my new room. We'd settle here. Dad had settled on the fact that we were done running. If that detective came our way, then she'd meet no other than Daina Taura. I would be the end of her. It was exciting how dad had given me the opportunity as my birthday gift. I would have it no other way.

I walked courtiosly to my room on the top most floor,soon as the elevator door opened. "Your room mam. Your father has instructed that we stay around to guard you."

I looked at the captain of my guards and smirked. "Fine with me, as long as you remember the rules, my rules." He nodded in response to my clear statement.

The door opened to reveal an all new tech room all decorated with rich people stuff. I would go further to explain the french setting of it all but non of that mattered soon as I set my eyes on him.

He seemed my age, though older. He had on a black suit,well styled black hair, dark ebony eyes,mascular body, definitely taller than me. When our eyes met, I had to choke down a laugh.

"Since when did you start wearing suits bad boy!" I walked into the room and closed the door. Yeah the total haunk of a man was, sadly my crazy cousin El.

We had practically grown up together. Even though we weren't real cousins, we considered each other family.
He stood next to a chair facing another chair,table in the middle, window side view of the beautiful city.

He looked like a prince or something. But the suit and stuff. I didn't know all about that.

"Ooh dad made me put it on so I'd look more like a gentleman." I walked closer to him and gave him a big hug. Still in his arms I looked at him. "Gentleman! Why?" I said looking at him with a playful smile.

He takes his hands through his hair and broke away from the contact.

He sat down and I followed suit. "Dad thinks I should propose to you!" He finally broke out after a moment of silence. Ooh shit! This was the surprise! I get ingaged to my crazy cousin? No way. I couldn't. It just felt weird.

" Is he serious!" "Very serious mi amore."

I laughed out loud and he just stared at me seriously. I stopped laughing when I saw his eyes barrowing into mine. They looked as clear as day, but as dark as night. Had he changed these three years we had been apart?

Yes,sadly we'd been separated from each other, because I had to focus on my martial arts studies and gun fighting.
He was such a distraction. He always had my attention even when he didn't ask for it. I hadn't known why. Up until this point.

He looked deep into my eyes and a smile, a small nervous smile crept up his face. I thought it was sexy. And then it just came out.

"I love you,Daina... I always have. " My heart sank. "Wtf! No! You can't! I can't! Our lives are too unstable for us to have anything. I can't loose u like I did Cathy."

Cathy, a faded memory, but still cut wounds into my heart whenever I remembered it. She was my big sister but I'd failed to protect her. They had held me back from going back into the fire to save her. I watched her burn in her room. That picture never left my mind. And no suspect, no one to blaim.

I had lost her because she had been trying to protect me.

They say love, it makes you do crazy things. And my cousin was sure, pure,crazy.

I had to say no but he wouldn't take it.

"I'm going to jump off the roof of this very restaurant tonight, midnight, if u do not come up there and tell me you love me too."

I just srugged and poured myself a drink." I'd like to see u try." I raised the glass and drank it's contents. He stormed off. Jeez did love have to be so complicated.