So to start off I just found out that the boy I liked does not like me and that he like another girl name crystal witch hurts like a bitch to be honest. Tbh with you guys I kinda knew that he wouldn't like me I know that because we are both totally different people and also told my friend that the reason that he "likes" crystal is that she is "beautiful". When my friend told me that I felt that I was ugly and worthless which is a bad thing to do but I did it. I'm ready good at thinking the worst case scenario which is the bad habit I hate that I do. Back to what we were saying so yeah now I feel confused and the feeling of feeling hopeless and worthless I feel like that's a phase that all of us go through that make us feel like crap and trash but that my friend is called friend. Now I know why they call a crush , A crush because they end up crushing you into tiny pieces and sucking the life of you, It may seem scary but it happens. Also something I forgot to mention is that after my friend told me that, the next day I texted him and told him how I feel about him which seems like I am an attention whore but I did it cause him to know before its to late and j get even more hurt I wrote him like a long ass paragraph that felt to me like a desperate call but I did. tbh every time I text him he never received or looks at the messages I give him and your probably saying "He probably has his phone off or " If he really liked you he would text you back"or " I don't think that he likes you😔" and I would say back to you " honey don't you think that I tried thinking that before and get distracted by all the things that "could" happen instead of "will" happen. One time I told my friend why doesn't he text me back and she told me that he thought I'm annoying which I thought was totally bullshit but I'm mean u guess I kinda am idk but thats what you do when you like someone I think . Well anyways yeah so the good thing out all of this bs is that I'm trying to get over him cause it seems like he was just not meant for me . I think the best thing to do is just look for a new guy that makes me happy instead of a guy that may not even know I exist and not give a crap💩 about me. so yeah I hope this changes the way you think about him cause now Instead of crushing on the bad boy I feel like "actually" crushing him jk😂. No I mean I don't hate him it's just that I'm not interested in him anymore and that I'm more important that somebody like him. So if you guys have any advice or anything helpful to tell me about the situation I'm in go and comment on it please I would love what you guys have to say really. ❤️love you guys❤️✌️peace .
