Gratitude over Grumbling

          Sunset are proof that no matter what happens everyday can end beautifully. Life is about perspective meaning it's how we choose to see things. A broken glass may look useless to most of us but for some, it's actually a piece that can be transform into a masterpiece. I'd like to emphasize this broken glass into life's challenges. We get broken everyday meaning there are things that happen around us that makes us feel bad, irritate us, makes us feel hopeless especially when we face unexpected trials and this trials are in form of human or difficult people or incident like accident etc. Whenever we face trials, often times we question God and asked him why is this happening to me? Why would you allow such things? I don't deserve this! This is unfair! These are some of the reactions that we often say in times of crisis and sometimes we even blame ourselves for being not good enough, for being not pretty enough, not smart enough and worse tell ourselves that we are hopeless its done but then when good things happen, to us we often forgot to be kind to ourselves and thank God for our blessings.

          I am one of those people who used to grumble and it took me soo long before I can finally fill my heart with gratitude. July has been a challenging month for me. My car got hit, I had a relapsed from my breakup, our factory got locked down etc. As I was collecting my thoughts and thinking how I feel during those days that I encounter these challenges, I end up smiling and felt proud because I realized that I have grown enormously spiritually. I consider these trials as God's way of showing me he loves me. How could God express his love through trials? He uses people to show his love towards me. He has his ways of expressing his love all you have to do is keep an eye on it and let your faith see it. God shows that he loves me when my car got hit earlier through the people who helped me to settle this mess but most of all through my father. When my dad arrived to checked on me he immediately asked are you ok? Were you hurt? And as he negotiate with the police officers, with the person who hit my car etc. I asked myself what am I gonna do if I don't have my dad? Who will rescue me? Who will help me discuss things with these people? I am lost in this kind of incident I am not good in negotiating as this is not my cup of tea. I felt my father's love I felt his care his concern and I honestly feel guilty because a few weeks ago when he was having his moment I asked God why is my father acting up like this again? Why is he being difficult? Maybe it's time for my dad and mom to go separate ways since it triggers my mom's health. I don't speak to him for a couple of days and I can tell that my dad is not ok with it. He feels bad and he tries to speak with me but he will never apologize. He knows that he hurt me and he tries to be the bigger person to resolve our unspoken issue. I was grumbling and praying to God to help me fight that devil in me that meddle my peace and gratitude and so God did. God let me experience my father's love when my childhood friend got married. He gave me my favorite pop rice and said this was your favorite when you were young and I can clearly remember that joy in your face whenever you have it. I got excited and say thank you dad. I can't contain the happiness that I felt that day but the smile in father's face is priceless.

          God is so generous to me. He speaks through bottles of Malbec that my friends will bring since it's my favorite, through random fone call that will made me stop crying, through random messages from my sister who tells me that she loves me and serves as an eye opener for me to admit that I long for that care for that love and there's still some residue from the breakup that I need to surrender to God so I can wholeheartedly accept his love towards me. These are just random events. It may sound ordinary but for me it's not and I am thankful for that. I used to see myself as a broken glass but Jesus shows me that I am one of his masterpiece.

          Often times we fail to see the beauty of life. How blessed we are how God shows and express his love towards us because we often grumble on small things and make it big things that ruins our inner peace and destroy our well-being. Life is about perspective. It's about choosing gratitude over grumbling. It's about finding beauty in simple things. Living a life filled with gratitude is not easy but it's achievable. When you surrender everything to God and let him be in your life, you will have a grateful heart. Gratitude is a choice and it starts the moment that we choose to see beauty from a broken glass.