It's You I Want.

The Rejection

She stood there, with a male giggling having the time of her life, touching his shoulder as he cracked stupid nonsense. I stared from a far distant, I felt as if I've been stabbed in the heart. She knew how much I liked her, or to be more precise how much I loved her. It all started in 7th grade I loved her so much and was afraid of her reaction when I where to confess , then on a Wednesday afternoon I gained the courage and strength to tell her I took her to the library, I looked at her, god she was so beautiful I'd say as she looked at a novel of mythical creatures reading it immensely, even her cough and sneeze where beautiful, then I'd sit down next to her and she'd glance at me with her glistening hazel eyes her lips were pink but not the normal pink, more like shiny pink where she laid lipgloss, they looked so soft, I wanted her lips to touch mine so bad then I turned away. "Umm..listen Rose I-I need to tell you something" she lifted her head and smiled, god her smile always made my heart stop, I shook it off and held her hand " I Love You Rose" her eyes widen and wiggled her hand off mine. "Haha I love you to Joshy, your the bestest guy friend ever" she hugged me and I hugged her back my heart was beating so fast. " No,no Rose I mean, I-I love you, love you" she laughed and patted my back ,as if it were simply a joke. " I mean it, I Love You Rose, these words are from here" I grabbed her hand and layed it on top of my heart " Ever since middle school, the day I met you, the way you are tranced me, your heart and soul, are them of an angel, I just didn't have the courage or strength to tell you" she looked at me confused and stood up, fixing her shorts. " Whatever you're pulling on me right now just stop, it isn't funny Josh, " she was walking away and I got up quickly, reaching my hand to grab her arm " Don't leave please, this isn't a joke I swear Rose I love you and always have" she looked away and shook my hand off her arm " let me go Josh," she glared at me and I let her go " I will... Just please listen to me, you're the best thing i've ever had in my life, and you know how fucked up it was, you know that i suffered a lot, you made my days and nights better just having you with me kept me happy, there is just no words to explain how perfect you are how much of a great friend you are I Love You Rose" I opened up the key to my door with her but all she did was look at me and responded with " I'm sorry.... But the feeling isn't mutual.." and like that she walked away from me, she stopped replying to my messages like she use too, she stopped telling me deep secrets, and the worst of all we stopped hanging out like we use too. Of course we still talk, but everything just seemed awkward since that day. Every time we part, it depresses me, you have no idea how much I love her, I'd give my life for hers. When she's around other males, I tend to start scratching my neck in anxiety. I would paste back and forth and tried walking towards them, but their jocks, so there isn't anything I can do. Then again, I'd do anything... For her....