Rejects

The Goodbye

I instinctively turn around to see a crowd gathered. Curiously, I walk over to the crowd and push through walls of people to see a Niall and Louis fighting. This isn't one of their normal fun-fights, this is a full-on punching fight. There are tons of bruises on both boys as two tall muscular boys try to push them away but fail. "STOP! NO MORE FIGHTING!", I scream as I grab the boys by the arm and push them away from each other. I look Niall in the eye as I say, "picking me to be the fan to come on stage during Little Things, asking me to go to the amusement park with you guys was a big mistake." Looking Louis in the eye I say, "you asking me to explain my life to you guys was also a mistake. I've should've just stayed away, I always mess up everything." I walk away with my head down as I run full force away from the two. "HANNAH! STOP, COME BACK, YOU ARE NOT A MISTAKE YOU DIDNT MESS UP ANYTHING!", Louis screams. I cringe as I respond, "then why are you two fighting? I should've killed myself that one stormy December night when I planned it. no one would've cared. My parents and classmates would have just carried on with their life as if nothing happened. The only thing that stopped me was One Direction. Me loving you, me caring about you, me becoming a fan, it was all a mistake! I SHOULD HAVE REALISED THAT YOU GUYS WERE TOXIC FOR ME." I shake my head as I correct myself. "I'm toxic for you. I'm toxic to everyone. I'm toxic to everything. There's nothing you can say or do to make up for the cruel words and actions that have been expressed to me. Years of being bullied and being told I was worthless. Nothing can make up for that." I continue to walk towards the well as Niall asks, "Hannah, don't do anything stupid. You'll regret it." I just laugh, "I'll regret it? No I won't. The whole world will be thanking me." I pick up the knife that somehow ended up next to me and say, "if you call the police, try to help or do anything I'll stab myself in the heart. I'm being serious." I quickly grab the knife and slice it across my pale skin and watch the blood sizzle. I do that over and over as I see Niall start crying. "Niall, turn around. You too, Louis. Turn around. Now." They both say goodbye and hug me right before turning around. "Goodbye", i calmly say as I don't hesitate as I jump down the well, my blood already soaking my clothes. My life flashes right before my eyes and I'm happy it ended like this: peaceful.