Caught in Red

Caught in a lie

Jimin drove, and drove, and drove. He drove so fast he even ran 2 stop lights. He didn't have a destination; he just needed to get away.

-I was caught in a lie. I need to be pulled from this hell. It feels as if I'm being swallowed whole.-

Jimin didn't know what to think. Jungkook has shown his true colors to Jimin merley 20 minutes ago and all the blonde could do was watch. He was fooled, fooled by the ravenette and had fallen for him in the process. Jimin had anger and sadness bundled up in his body. His mind was running wild with thoughts about jungkook.

-You should go back-
    -You love him-  
       -He played you-
          - He probably didn't love you-
        -I hate him-
      -I hate him!-
  - I'm stuck...-
Jimin began to let the salty drops run from his eyes. It didn't help that it was already pouring and he didn't bother to put on a helmet. He was too busy in his own thoughts to think of his surroundings. He was hurt, hurt by Jeon Jungkook. Hurt at the fact that he had fallen in love at the wrong time. -He was caught in a lie- Jimin thought he couldn't escape, why was this all happening to him? What did he do to deserve such a feeling of regret and heartache? His heart hurt so much. It felt as if he was being suffocated.

"I need to get far away..." Jimin's eyes began to become blurry. The rain drops and his tears were fogging his vision. "Shit.....Shit..." Jimin couldn't take it anymore. The rainbow of emotions was embalming his whole body, invading every section and he just couldn't take it. So the blonde screamed, he needed to let it all out but it wasn't soon till he was on the ground.

The blonde grunted as he lay on the dirt path he had found himself on. His back felt as if he was hit with a million knives. He felt queasy still and he landed on his arm weirdly. Jimin had taken too hard of a turn and fell off the motorcycle. Now he lay on the dirt path, not caring where the bike had wound up or how scuffed up his arm was. The tears came down his fair skin gently. His blonde hair cascaded the ground and he laid there for a moment.

Jimin had cried, and cried. He needed to let it all out. He needed to flush all these running thoughts and feelings out of him. His chest was heavy, heavy with sorrow and his head was pounding.

-I can't be free from this lie-
  -pull me from this hell-
    -I can't be free from this pain-

Jimin finally had gotten up from the dirt path. He realized he had taken himself to the busan house. He trailed his tired eyes to the mansion upon him. The memories of him and Jungkook had resurfaced his head. Jimin was too tired to cry anymore, more like he had no more tears too. The blonde walked hazily to the door, being greeted by his butler.

"Mr.Park..."

The blonde didn't say anything. He felt beat and didn't want to do anything. Jimin trudged his way to his room and fell onto the king sized bed. The room was still dark and it felt cold. Jimin huffed. His arm was bleeding a little and it stinged. His back was in pain from the sudden fall and now his head was pounding harder.

Jimin was stuck in a position he didn't want to be in. The person who he calls his first love betrayed him. After everything he had been pitched to the side as if nothing cared, at least that's what it looked like in Jungkook's eyes about 2 hours ago. His doe eyes Jimin loved ever so dearly and his smile was shaped so perfectly. But he betrayed Jimin. He stabbed the blonde in the heart and he couldn't take it. The emotion for hatred was growing by the minute.

So Jimin did as everyone else does, he numbed his feelings. Completely shut them off and he didn't want to use them anymore. The blonde had no color in his caramel eyes and no more expression in his face. Jimin knew he couldn't die, he wouldn't be that stupid, but the closessed  he could get was numbing all feeling in his body. Retracting them was the best thing at this point, for Jimin at least.

Jimin had gotten up and began to treat his scuffed arm. He didn't care anymore. He compelled himself this was all a dream, no, a nightmare. He needed to just wake up right? He didn't need Jungkook and to the looks of the latter he didn't need Jimin.

-I'll just forget everything about Jeon Jungkook, I don't need him anymore and I should have never needed him. I had let my guard down and let him in. So he betrayed me....I hate him-

Jimin looked at himself in the mirror. His eyes were puffy and his face was a nice shade of pink. Jimin switched his view to his hair. He could feel the raveonettes soft touch on his head as if he was there. It was haunting him. Jungkook loved Jimin's hair so Jimin needed to hate it.

flashback- 

"Jimin-ah! Your hair is so fluffy" Jungkook sat beside the blonde and ruffled his locks.

Jimin was sitting on the couch, the two decided to stay in for the day to watch a movie Jungkook had picked.

"really...It used to be black but I dyed it  because I got mad at my father once..."

"So did you just keep dying it then?"

Jimin shyly nodded as Jungkook smiled.

"I like the blonde, it suits you well..." 

Jimin smiled, feeling the heat arise in his cheeks as he snuggled into Jungkook's side. He felt embarrassed and all Jungkook did was ruffle his blonde locks...

-end of flashback-

The blonde gripped his hair at the sudden memory. Jimin needed distractions, he needed something to keep his mind off of his so-called first love. So he rushed downstairs; still damp from the rain outside he went to his butler's room.

"Do we have hair dye?" 

Chang looked up, "I believe so...Why Jimin."

"I need you to dye my hair back to black please."

Chang stared at the blonde for a moment and then sighed. He had gotten up and rushed to his bathroom grabbing a hair dye box, "Your father had this ready for whenever you wanted to change back but you never did. Come sit Jimin."

Said boy walked over to his butler and sat on the pulled out chair. Jimin smiled a little once Chang began. He didn't want to feel suffocated anymore. Jimin had decided to turn the love for Jungkook into hatred and remove every inch of what he liked away from Jimin. He needed to get rid of him completely.

So Jimin needed to finally follow his father; follow his footsteps and turn around his life like Jungkook had never invaded. He had to make sure there were no traces of Jeon Jungkook and return back to his old life with his father.