The excitement of being in a new place pervades you. The adrenaline and happiness that comes with this excitement floods your brain, because you haven't felt this way in a long time. You can't even sense or care that what you're doing is wrong, that it's downright a crime. You're in someone else's house and you can't wait to explore every nook and cranny of it in the dark, while listening to snoring from different rooms.
You go up the stairs, which crackle in some places, but you walk slowly and carefully enough not to hear a difference in snoring. At the end of the hallway, you see a door you want to enter anyway. You want to discover what's in there. The door handle rotates silently, and as you open the pitch black room a little, you hear another continuous breathing. You enter and wait for your eyes to get used to the pitch black. You can't believe you're standing in someone's room, and you don't even know who lives here. You have no idea who is sleeping in front of you in bed, but the excitement has peaked in you. So much so that your grin almost hurts your face.
Who would have thought that on another boring night, you had so much courage to just leave your room and walk out in the middle of the night just not to fall into the same insane black circular slide that your mind creates for you every night with the negative thoughts and flashes of the frenzy. The air outside was refreshing, but the thoughts were starting to catch up. You tried to avoid them in alleys and narrower paths. When you saw that a reachable window was open a little in a house at a hidden corner and there were no obstacles in the way, you climbed in, from them, without thinking. The thoughts surely didn't notice because they haven't found you since. Instead, this wonderful excitement goes through you that you may have last felt as a child.
You just stand there tall next to the bed and your eyes can take out the shape and objects more and more. You feel the possibilities are endless. You could stand there for hours and watch with a grin. The pain in your face doesn't bother you. Or you could visit everyone. There was so much snoring from all over. So many rooms and people to explore. Blessed people these may be, to be able to fall asleep so easily.
NO!
You're staying with this guy. You feel safe here. This is the furthest room from the window you entered. Thoughts patrolling outside and in your house will not find you here. Maybe you wait until he wakes up, then you don't even have to go back. You don't want to live through another night like that. The unknown that may come in the morning seems exciting. You don't want to wake him up, but you don't want to touch his belongings either. You stand there and wait, grin on your face. Everything will be fine. Salvation is coming to you too. Your breathing starts to pick up the rhythm of the guy's breathing. You can't take your eyes off him.
