Its been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
Damm, who knew?
(Sometimes not lyrics but memories of that person attach to lyrics makes you emotional )
"Don't change so people will like you, their was no problem in you kara, it just a situation that was not in your favor "shruti said to me over the call. After 10 days its her marriage, she will be marrying love of her life.
"Uhmmm....I know shruti...don't you worry about, please worry about yourself, and I will worry about your husband how he will handle you" with that chuckle, I tried to normalize the situation. I don't want to discuss my things with anyone.
With that I disconnected the call and open the draw of my table, took a photo frame and looked at it.
Everyone tell me that be youself and the right people will love the real you,And I know that they are saying right but what we do when the only right person leave you, they left you all alone in their love.
Now I am at that stage where I am sick of crying, trued of trying and yes I'm smiling,but inside I'm dying. But i smile only for you, I think that somewhere you might be seeing me, and if i cry it will hurt you. As it always hurt you when someone cry beacause of you.
I cant even hurt you in my wildest dream. I never have left you, infact I carried you along with me and will never get bore or rid off it as it's my favorite thing to do.
How can they even think that I can forget you and think of someone else! Is it that easy? To forget that one person who gave so much to you to never forget her. Even her mere thought makes knot in my stomach everytime.
Now I am not even depressed or have anxiety or might I have both but now I am so use to live with them that it doesn't even bother me now.
Even if someone gave me option to choose between me and you, I'd choose you, i will choose you for my everylife. Even if I have to choose you i this way.
I respect our promise, I respect our bond and more important I respected you. I can't give your place to anyone, because that will be disrespect to her, will it be?
We are in that hide and seek game, that you are hiding from me, I know where you are but just for your win, I will not seek you and I will just let you win. Like everytime..
I love you , even when you are mile away, I still hope, you can hear me somehow.
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"Hello Tejasswi!" Last time I called her was on her birthday last year.
"Hey shruti!, it's been long time" I was so happy, she called me. Shruti,person whom I have been in touch with from India.
"It's my wedding Teju......" before I could complete Tejasswi bombarded with questions.
"What, when, where, with whom, why are you telling me now....."
"Calm down, calm down...it still have 10 days, It will be in Delhi only, and with whom else I could marry, it only him ..."
"Rajat?" I remember her boyfriend name, we all were in same batch. They started dated at the same time when me and.... let it be.
"Ofc its Rajat, I can't even think of marrying anyother guy!! You know that " she didn't even realize what she said.
"Hmm...Im so happy for you..congratulations " we all were in same group, I use to tease them, that they will not gonna marry with eachother as she was not sure about Rajat at that time and we all use to joke about it.
