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❥Do I deserve you?

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫/𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: Jungkook x reader | hurt/comfort, au.

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: None! :D

𝐑𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜: Still with you • Jungkook

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You try to be not so loud as you sob incessantly sitting on the corner of the bed. You move your hands to cover your face to muffle your whimpers and realize you'd been fisting your baby blue skirt so tightly all this time that it has become awry. It has been this way for the past hour. The throbbing ache in your chest and head doesn't seem to evanesce anyhow, the tears cascading down your warm face make it even hard to get yourself together.

You try to tell yourself that all these emotions and crying is pointless, a losing game. That your adoration and reverence for Jungkook is just an infatuation and it shouldn't affect you as much. Life seemed like an endless loop of getting up daily and looking for love and warmth in all the wrong places, a half-life in lost dreams. It was as if he came out of the blue on a rainy night and brought you back to life. 

The day he became a part of your world.

Neither of you was committed, but not obligated to each other anyhow too. He never brought it up, and you decided to keep it that way. Maybe you both were just friends who happened to get along when they were together. Well, you liked when he was around, and that was the only thing you knew. It had been enough for both of you. Nothing less, nothing more. You thought he'd never give you any pain, and even if he did, you were certain that he had done plenty for you to make up for it.

But it was still hard. Seeing him with some other girl in the hallway crushed your fragile heart into pieces. Gosh, she was beautiful. Why would Jungkook want to be with you anyways, you're not even half as pretty. They both looked so pretty standing next to each other, the way she batted her eyes and laughed so lovingly and how he gave in and chortled too. You should be happy for him, he's the kind of person who deserves the whole world, but here you are, bawling your eyes out and letting your stupid feelings topple over.

Your sniffs grow louder as you try to bury your face deeper in your hands in shame and embarrassment. Suddenly you hear the doorknob click.

"There you are, I've been looking for you everywhere-"Jungkook stops short as he finds you sitting on the bed, shoulders shaking, cheeks wet. A gush of panic rushes through you as you try to quickly stop the stream of tears rolling down your face and sit upright from your hunched posture.

You look up, face struck for a moment to find him here. And the shocked expression on his face seems like he didn't expect to find you in a state as wrenched as this too.

"Y/n?" he quietly calls out your name as he closes the door.

That's all it took. Just one word from him and any possible self-restraint holding you back washes away, you break, face crumpling, eyes rheumy and bloodshot. You want to reach out to him, tell him he doesn't deserve someone as self-absorbed as you in his life. But you can't seem to find your voice and it feels like a hundred needles have been fixated in your throat.

You barely have time to reach both hands out for him before he's there, kneeling at your feet by the edge of the bed. His beautiful face glistened with concern as he took in your befuddled state from close. You don't seem to find any words, it's all so lowly to let out anyways.

He reaches out and takes your hand first, slowly kissing your knuckles and palms, his chocolate brown eyes looking right into yours.

"I-I can't stop it. I'm sorry-" you wince at your pitiful attempt to talk.

"Shhh, it's okay now. Just breathe. I'm here. Don't you ever forget that I'm always here."

He holds your hands tightly in his as he tilts his head and rests it on your thighs. He loved doing this, saying that it's probably the comfiest cushion he'll ever have. 

"I know what it's about, you don't have to worry." Your eyes light up as his hot breath fans against your thighs. He knew. All the things you do, the ways you move, he can see through everything easily. You don't need to explain anything when you're with him.

He starts rubbing little circles with his index finger on your inner thigh.

"Hey! that tickles" you say letting out a small giggle, much to your surprise. He lifts his head up to look at you, giving a contagious and warm bunny smile. He was happy if him being around subsided your pain, if you forgot about all your worries at the moment.

"You're so pretty when you cry."

The pure and earnest words leaving his lips make your heart throb. This boy, right here, on his knees, is trying to make up for something he doesn't have to. But he is. That's what makes him so damn precious. And what do you do? cry and wail upon little things just because of your insecurities and make him worry.

"But that doesn't give you the right to cry in front of me, nope." he stands up and boops your nose softly.

You pluck up the courage to finally ask him something you feared to since forever.

"Jungkook, do I deserve you?"

"Do you wanna know?" he answers after a short pause.

You nod.

He reaches out to cup your face gently, pressing soft kisses around your cheeks, brushing his lips teasingly past yours, murmuring "give yourself to me" and "let me spoil you with my love" and "I'll never run out" and "so brace yourself for me" in between. There's such a hint of certainty in his voice like never before, it sends a sparkling ting bursting through your veins. You keep your eyes shut as he keeps pecking your face and rubs off the tears that welled up at the corner of your eyes with his thumb.

He lets go and you open your eyes to see him heading towards the door.

"Let's grab lunch together. And breakfast tomorrow. And lunch again. Dinner too. Everyday."

His voice keeps running over and over in your head as you get up and stroll behind him.

"And don't ever cry by yourself like this again, it makes me mad. I'll punish you."

wait, what?

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A/n: A reminder that Jeon Jungkook loves you, always will ♡