penny for your thoughts?

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Damn it's been long hasn't it, but I'm back with a question from 2 days ago and it is "what should I do if my mom is a psychopath who tries to kill me if I do as much as breath wrong"

I've never dealt with such a situation myself but I know that it is not normal to be scared of coming home because you're scared of what will happen if you fuck up and break a plate or use up the hot water or even burn toast cause it's a part of life it's a part of living and it's what helps us grow as human beings and you absolutely cannot have someone breathing down your neck everytime you make a mistake and make you think 'why can't I be normal? why can't I be perfect? why am I so incapable of such simple tasks?' Honey let me tell you something no one is perfect no one has such an advanced thought process to think and prepare for each and every scenario that might happen because if human beings were truly capable of such then we wouldn't be going through a war right now. Whoever it is be it your parents, siblings ,peers and teachers anyone who forces you to fit a certain criteria that they themselves couldn't even touch is nothing but a parasitic imbecile trying to control your life because they couldn't do anything with theirs and are trying to force you not to make the same mistakes as them but what they're forgetting is that you are two different people and have different views on life and as such forcing you to be their perfect little doll is foolish and disgusting because you are your own person you should think for yourself and you should make your own decisions and do what you think is best for you at the moment and if later it doesn't work out then it's okay because everyone makes mistakes and fucks up a few things in life because that's what it means to be human the capability to make a choice and whether it's right or wrong correcting yourself and moving on is one of the many beauties of life. You are your own person and anyone that tries to take away your right to think, to make decisions for yourself, to live love think and experience things outside the little box you've called your life growing up is someone you should throw out your life because their toxic negativity is what's throwing your life out of balance. She may be your mother but she has no right to dictate how you live and do things just because she gave birth to you and I know if you tell her that she will say something like 'I didn't suffer for nine months with you in my stomach for you to treat me like this' but she is trying to guilt trip you into pitying her and staying in her toxic net of manipulation and that is what destroys your mind as a person. I would usually say talk to her but she clearly needs mental help if she tries to kill you for every little mistake so call the police or someone who you trust with your life that can help you and get that women some help because she doesn't deserve to be called a mother after all she's done to you. Surround yourself with people that love, cherish and care for you not those that make you fear for your life even in your dreams because that is not discipline its mental physical and verbal abuse and such should never be taken lightly. You are loved and even if you don't see it there are people who do and you just have to find them.

I hope this is what you are looking for and I wish you all the best and if anyone that reads this just needs someone to talk to that won't judge them no matter what then I'm always here.

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