A not so good day

Unexpected confession

Team slowly woke up, he couldn't figure out why he was so warm. His pillow was warm too but not soft like normal. It also smelt really good, a familiar smell. Something he really wished he could experience all the time. But he had to be dreaming or the meds were messing with him because there was no way Win would be in his bed, especially not cuddling like he really seemed to be doing. He felt a warm hand under his shirt rubbing his back softly. He groaned and whispered "Either someone is in my bed or I am having the best dream. '' he heard and felt a chuckle. A very familiar chuckle.  He slowly opened his eyes only to see that he was laying on a very familiar chest. He groaned in embarrassment and tried to quickly roll over and get out of bed without embarrassing himself further. He felt a slight tug on his waist and the feeling of being pulled back against his chest.

"Where do you think you are going?"  He heard an amused Win say.

"To go hide in my bathroom and die of embarrassment. " Team muttered trying again to get up albeit not too hard he still wasn't feeling up to snuff. He gave up after a moment and asked "Why are you here, I am pretty sure Pharm was here when I went to sleep. "

Win tried not to let that comment hurt. He started to pull away, when he felt a hand grab him and keep him there, spooning the other.

"I...I didn't mean it in that way Win, I am just trying to understand why you would come and apparently sleep here with me. " he whispered his fingers nervously tracing Win's.

"I know I shouldn't have just come in and laid with you but I was worried and didn't want to leave you alone. If this is an issue I can leave. But Team, I really care about you and when Dean said you were sick....I couldn't even concentrate on practice. Dean sent me home. "

Team turned around so he could see Win, he saw now that he was looking closely he noticed how stressed Win looked. He hesitantly reached up to undo the ponytail, before carding his hand through Wins soft hair.

"Hia, I'm sorry if I worried you. That was not what I meant to do. I really was not feeling well, and Pharm still had to make me go to the clinic. I was still going to try and come to practice. But you know how Pharm gets." He whispered smiling internally as he watched how Win leaned into his touch.

"Well honestly I'm glad he made you go to the clinic. I sometimes think you push yourself too much." He muttered his hand gently rubbing Teams back. He didn't want to push for more. Team could be so prickly about affection, though he had been getting better. " How about I get you a bit to eat and then we can go back to sleep." Win said softly.

"Ok Hia but not too much, I am really tired" he said, yawning to make his point. Win chuckled and nodded before getting up to make Team a little bit of food to take his medication with. 

Once Team was done and Win had cleaned up, Win didn't know really what to do with himself. Normally he was the calm and collected one. But Team did things to him. Made him nervous and unsure at times of what to do or say. Team came out from the bathroom and climbed into bed. He glanced at Win with a frown and said. "Hia? What's wrong?"

Win shrugged and whispered " Nothing, Team, I just want to make sure you are ok before I go back to my room."

"Why? What if.. what if I want you to stay here. Onlyifyouwantto!" He muttered the last in a rush.

Win looked up in surprise, before crossing quickly to Team, grabbing his hands before saying "Look at me Team" he waited as Team slowly looked up. "You really want me to stay? " he asked, watching the emotions play over Team's face.

"More than anything Hia. But I won't force you too. " he whispered

"Move over, " Win said before climbing into the bed next to Team. Arranging them so Team was facing him "I would love to stay with you Team. That's all I have ever wanted. " he said fiercely

Team looked at him in wonder. Not really believing what his Hia was saying. Something he had only thought would come true in his dreams. "Do ...do you mean you like me. Not just as a friend?"  He murmured 

"Team, You have no idea how long I have wanted to tell you. But for so long I.. I didn't think I had a chance. You kept pushing me away. I have really loved you since we first met. You were so different from anyone else. I wanted to protect you and hold you. I want to find out more of your likes and dislikes. I want to be there to hold you when you are sick or upset. I want all those things and so much more. " he said as he carded his fingers through Team's hair. He didn't think he would ever get tired of being able to touch Team like this. Or to see that soft content smile that he had right now, as he leaned further into Wins touch. He glanced down and saw tears drop from Team's eyes. "Baby ? Why are you crying?" He worriedly said. Pulling Team closer and rubbing his back to calm him.

"Hia , I didn't know, why, didn't you say anything. I didn't mean to hurt you Hia. I just didn't know what I was feeling. I... I never felt like this before. It scared me, but yesterday when Pharm brought me home. We talked, he said something that made me finally realize what I was feeling. "

Team recalled that conversation clearly, after all it wasn't everyday that your best friend told you to get your head out of your ass before you lost something that you would regret losing. He freaked out when the thought of losing Win to someone else entered his head. It was honestly his worst nightmare. Even worse than the ones that kept him awake at night. At least those he could normally wake up from. But not the ones about Win.

"Well it seems we owe a lot to Pharm. But what exactly did he make you realize? "

"That I can't lose you, though I didn't have you yet in the way I really wanted. I honestly thought that I had no chance. There are so many others out there you could have. Who is so much better than me. Who don't have nightmares that keep you awake or that is hard on themselves. "

"Team, honestly since the day you came into my life there has been no one else. You can have me, I am hoping that it means you want to be my boyfriend as much as I want you."

Team pulled back slightly so he could see Win, his hand reaching up to cup his cheek. Win leaned into it, closing his eyes with a sigh "I would love that Win, I would love to be your boyfriend. You have no idea how much I want to kiss you. But I don't want to get you sick too. " he said quietly.

Win looked at him with a soft smile before leaning forward and kissing his forehead. " Well once you are better, we can kiss as much as you want. I know I am looking forward to that. " he said with a wink.

"Hia!! " Team said, smacking his chest lightly before curling around his boyfriend and drifting off to sleep in his warm embrace.