Being in love with you was the worst and best thing that ever happened to me
But the thing is I wasn't really in love
It was just the idea that I had you and you had me
It was as if we were the only two people on the planet and all that mattered was the way we looked at each other
With you I was the safest I ever felt you made me feel special which is why I thought I was in love
But I wasn't I was just attached
Attached to the idea of you choosing me over anyone else
Attached to your soul in the way you looked at me and reassured me that everything was OK
And I was so attached that I truly believed you
That's until everything fell apart
We stop talking and it felt like a whole new world without you I had no purpose without you I had no one to focus on and now I know that the best thing for both of us was to move on
And I claim Im happier without you but you're always in the back of my mind
It's like I cant help but think of you when I see the colour brown or when I listen to that song you told me you loved
When we stopped talking it felt like a whole new beginning in a good way but also the most depressing way you could imagine
I kept asking myself if everything you told me was a lie because for me it was hard to get over you but after we ended things it felt like I was just another girl in your phone
The way you talked to me
And you made feel like the most important girl in the world and now I can't tell if the reassurance you gave me was just to keep me attached or if you truly felt that way
The reason being in love with you was so great is because now I know what to expect
I know when I can and can't trust someone
And I know the difference between real love and attachment
