Love and War

Letting Go

     After we had left Kinn behind we made our way back to body guard dorm. I flopped down on the sofa in my room. After what had happened vegas had noticed the horrible mood that I was in in so he brought me back here to rest and gather myself. I really appreciated the fact that he didn't say much on the way back but I think he knew not to. I was starting to form a massive headache after today, so I sat in the dark and silence and just let today events replay themselves as i  finally let my feelings just go. 

     I wanted to cry but nothing came just the silence that surrounded me in the dark. I had finally gotten the answer that I had wanted from him for a while. I can now fully let go and not immerse myself in love game I was playing with Kinn. I finally feel free from the chains that had once held me to him and as much as it had hurt me to let go maybe one day I will now get to finally find someone who will actually love and appreciate me  when the time comes.

     I got up and went to take a shower. After I was done I didn't even bother to look at my phone and shut it off and went to bed for the night. 

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     I was sitting at the table at school in the dining area  completely immersed in the game that I was playing on my phone. I was ignoring everyone including my friends who were sitting with me honestly i didn't feel like talking to anyone at this point i just wanted to be left alone for now. However knowing my friends Jom and Tem they weren't about to leave me alone for much longer.  

     "porsche...porsche..Porsche.."

     "Is it true?" Jom had asked. I looked at him and said "is what true?" "That you and Kinn had finally broke up everyone is talking about how moody is he today in class and they figured it was because something between you to must have happened. " I looked at him and shrugged my shoulders and went back to playing my game I really didn't want to talk about it or him. 

     Tem noticing that i wasn't going to answer decided to switch the topic and asked "Are you planning on going anywhere after class today?" 

     "No i am completely free to do whatever why?"

     "Do you want to go and grab a bit to eat with us?"

     "Sure and then after i am done I am going to head back to the dorm, resign and pack my things and leave with Che. We are going back to our parents house since we now finally have the deed back." I said with an embarrassing face because they know if i quit i have to pay back a fee for breaking my contract that i know for right now i don't have the money to do. I will figure out a way to pay it back even if i have to work three jobs to pay it off and support myself and my Che. 

    "Hey speaking of Che where is he? Does he know what you are planning on doing since he just moved in there not to long ago?" Tem asked

     "Actually he hasn't been spending much time there lately. I was going to ask him why he seems to be hanging out with his friends more maybe he didn't like it there. Well now he wont have to worry about it since we will be leaving."

     "Hmm ok.." said jom even though he knows something about Che that Porsche didn't. He wasn't planning on telling Porsche right now. First he didn't want to be killed and second his mood doesn't seem so bad right now and wasn't looking to piss him off either. 

     "Can you let Tem and I know so that we can help you pack up your things."

     "Yea you guys can help but first lets go get something to eat I am starving. There is a stall on the other side of campus that sells som tam and i really am in the mood for it right now."