My Worst Mistake

part 3

I shift and I noticed that someone is in my bed. Assuming it was shinso I ignored it. I could already tell I had a hangover. What even happened last night? I wrapped my arm around shinso and felt something soft and squishy on his chest. When I opened my eyes I realized it was not Shinso! I sat up and looked around and saw that I have no idea where I even am. Oh no! No, no, no, no! I cheated on shinso!
   I don't even know who I cheated on him with. I'll just wake her up. I nudge her a few times and she sits up with nothing covering her chest. I look away and blush. "You're not wearing anything." I tell her. "Nothing you haven't seen before, Kami." She says. I know that voice. I slept with Jirou! "Last night was a mistake. I was drunk. I have a boyfriend and I love him." She laughs. "Love? Kami if you loved him you wouldn't have slept with me!" I love him but maybe I don't love him enough to not cheat? "You're probably right, but I do care for him and I feel like shit." I said. I started crying. "It'll be okay Kami." Jirou said rubbing my shoulders. I could tell she was trying to comfort me. "I should leave."
   I got dressed and grabbed all my stuff then I left. I walked into mine and Shinso's apartment. He was pouring his morning coffee. He looked at me and smiled. All the feelings I had poured out in the form of tears. "What's wrong Denki?" He asked. "It's nothing." I lied knowing the truth would end our relationship. It's selfish I know. I just won't tell him for now. So instead I told him that I ran over a bird. "Denki it was just a bird, people run over them all the time." He told me. "I know but it's still a life shinso." He smiled at me. "You're so caring Denks. It's one of the many reasons why I love you." He knows just how to make me feel guilty.
   "How about we go out to dinner to cheer you up?" Why won't this feeling in my chest go away? I feel horrible for what I did. Just how long can I keep on lying to him? I never should have slept with Jirou. Why did I do that and risk losing the love of my life? I wish I could remember.