Stuck on you

I know that I'm your brother,
from another mother,
but it all got complicated and mixed up when I wanted to be your lover,
Have your head on my shoulder,
....
But now I'm  stuck
Love is a spell you can't get over
I've tried to fight it but I still feel stuck,
I know telling you must have been a great shock,
Hdhdhdhdhdhdhdhdhdhdh
Yh ever since I fell for you Ive not been myself ,my whole 🧬 life has changed since then.
Movies lie,yh they lie,their love is a type of fairytale,
They have complications in their love but everything ends well,
I watch alot of movie so it makes me hope ,
But slowly reality is creeping in
Now I understand what everyone has been saying,
They all think that  I can't have you,
you can't or should I say, you  won't love me,
Yh I know, I've told you everything that I think I can tell and I feel I've done everything that I can do within my power to get your love:
I pray for you, you don't know ,you don't care,
I write for and about you but you don't feel or understand it,
I talk to everyone about you ,yh you don't know that ,
I gave you my time but you don't want it ,
I gave you money but you don't need it,
Gave you my heart but you didn't take, the only thing you have done was to break it ,
In my years with yiy I've discovered that you are my core ,
But........ I'm speechless.
Now the fact that I love you and you don't is taking me up on the inside slowly  and I don't know what to do that's why I said that in stuck
I fell into a hole called love and I don't know how to get out , it's a whole different and strange land,my own Alice in wonderland experience.
People that enter here normally enter here in pairs,and when they do , they settle in together andcreate their own world together,
My own story is that I entered here alone and built my own world on wishes,but that doesn't last,
So .... .... Feel blank and full of pain,
The funny thing is that when we are all feeling the pain of our mistakes, that's when we remember the advice that we got, and a long time ago my mumm said live is painful, I didn't listen and I dived right in without caution,now I regret it, don't feel bad for me ,and don't feel bad,fine I regret it not like I regret loving you,I just regret giving or should I say opening myself completely to you, that's the part that people would say; I loose guard.
But no problem in every experience we have in life ,it's for us to learn and I've learnt alot like; ( Title : Lessons I've learnt from love.)
Don't ever loose your guard to girl,
Stop telling her I love you when you are the only one saying it,
I have to close this chapter
I regret doing it but I have to because I'm the one stuck and you are not.
Thank you for everything,thank you for letting me grow,there is someone who loves me dearly and that's God and another person and that is me ,ill love myself. To my guys Love but........be wise.
Thank you for getting me stuck cause when you are stuck ,youll learn how to free yourself which is a very important life skill.
And thank you for not loving me
Why? Because.................................😌🤔✌️✌️.