July 19th 2021
Nayla pov
"Ughhhhhh" I moaned while shutting my alarm off. Today is the 1 year anniversary of my lil brothers death and my family wanna go all out. They wanna barbecue and release balloons and more shit.
I honestly just wanna stay in the house today and grieve my brother by ordering his favorite pizza and lay in bed all day but nooooo quote my parents "we wanna celebrate the memories we shared with your brother and surround ourselves with people who care"
Them people don't care they just sympathize us and my parents are sympathy junkies.
I rolled outta bed and walked into my connected bathroom. I turned on the shower and stripped my clothes and look in the mirror at my arms. I had cuts and burns on my wrist. I hated the way they looked but I loved the way it felt.
The blade digging into my skin and gliding against, the feeling when the blood left my body. The way the lighter heated up my sin.
I loved the pain. It's the only feeling I had since my brother died.
I hopped in the shower and washed up with my bath and body works 'into the night' body wash and exfoliated afterwards. I hopped out the shower and put my towel on and walked into my room.
I went into my closet and picked out a black Nike shirt and some black nike pro shorts. I went to my drawer and pick me out a 'pink' underwear set and then lotion and oiled my body up before putting in my clothes.
I put on about 5 pink beaded bracelets on each arms to cover the scars. Then put on my 2 small gold chains and my waist beads.
I slipped on sum slides and and brushed out my straightened 30inch bust down middle part wig.
I sprayed my 'into the night' perfume and walked outta my room and made my way downstairs.
I walked into the kitchen wear i saw my mom prepping the meats for the barbecue and my dad out back trying to start up the grill.
"Hey baby" my mom greeted me with a big smile. "Hi" I said quietly while walking over to the microwave and taking my plate out of it.
"It's okay to be sad today baby but don't let it take over you sweetheart" my mom said reverting her attention back to the meat. "What do you mean?" I asked her, looking up at her while stuffing my mouth with eggs.
"You been so down since it happened, not going out no more, barely speaking to anyone. Not saying me and your father got over his death but we didn't let it hold us back we pushed through the hurt and we fought out depression to function again" she said rubbing down the meat.
I didn't feel like responding to her. Ion feel like having this conversation again. So I just kept quiet.
"Are you going to be coming down for the barbecue?" She asked breaking the silence. I shook my head but realized she wasn't looking at me. "No" I said.
"Nayla-" I interrupted her. "I'm going over cicis house she wants to spend the day with me" I made up a quick lie just so we can avoid another 'you should come socialize with people who care' speech again.
"Oh okay. remember to come back at a certain time okay." She said. Ion really think she care when I get back just long as I check in with her.
I finished up my food and put my plate in the sink and walked up stairs. I flopped on my bed and grabbed my phone off the night stand.
Me and cicis message thread/
Nypooh💕
What you doing today?
Cimami 🐱
Nothing prolly hit jr block wbu
Nypooh💕
Lemme come witchu
Cimami 🐱
Why?? You don't even like people💀
Nypooh💕
Cause I told my mom already I was coming to your house sooo lemme come witchu
Cimami 🐱
Igh I'm Omw be ready
Nypooh💕
Okay
I exit out our message thread and get up and grab my purse and my keys and walk downstairs. I heard a horn blow outside and knew it was cici. I walked into the kitchen and said goodbye to my mom and dad and walked to the door and went out to the car.
I hopped into the passenger seat and buckled up.
"Why you going to jr block?" I asked while goin on my phone and checking my Instagram.
"He keeps ignoring my calls so I'm about to pull up on his black ass". She said while speeding up a little.
I looked at her and shook my head. "What" she laughed. "Don't beat on him too bad you know ya ass gone end up crying and feeling real bad for beating on him like dat". I said looking back down at my phone.
"Hush" she laughed. "Hopefully it won't come down to that" she said as we pulled up in-front of jr older brother house.
Jr and his brother and all their friends was out side.
Cici hopped outta the car and I followed right behind her.
"Why you couldn't answer your phone" cici said pressing jr. His friends looked at us and he looked at her then looked at me. "Oh shit you got miss quiet Nayla on the block" he said Drawlin the attention on me.
"Don't do that answer me" cici said pressing her finger into his chest. I just looked around.
"My phone in the house on the charger. I wasn't ignoring you sexy" he said smooth talking her. It worked cause she started blushing.
"Igh den next time keep that phone charged and on you" she said while putting her arms around him and they started kissing.
"Go get a room nasties" one of jr friends said while fake gagging.
"Shut tf up" jr said hard but jokingly.
"Damn lil baby you come on the block and don't speak" the lightskin one said.
"Y'all this nayla my bestie" cici introduced me while I nodded my head at them. "And this is deuce, Kai and jay and you already know jr older brother samir" she said pointing at the 2 lightkins and the one brown skin then at jr brother. "Yo" they all said except Samir. He was mean mugging me the whole time.
Igh it's getting to long imma cut it short right here ;) enjoy this chapter until I update
