Our little secret // lesbian story (intersex x girl)

23.

Angelica's POV

I sat up quickly. I had a nightmare..it was just like Josephine said. The picture of Thomas and Tristan dead was stuck in my head and I can still feel my heart beating fast after I shot Thomas.

I was scared but he was really hurting Josephine, I had to do something about it but it scared me a lot. I just had to fight that feeling for the moment, for Josephine.

Right now, I was sweating and my chest was rising and falling heavily. I looked over at Josephine who was still sound asleep on her back.

We usually cuddle or she at least sleeps on her side or stomach but because of the cuts she had, it really hurt her to sleep anyway other than her back.

And we didn't cuddle because any touch on her stomach would hurt her, even after covering the cuts. Some of them were really deep.

But she had her arm under me. Before we slept she had her arm resting under me as she played softly with my hair until I fell asleep.

I slowly leaned in towards her and placed a kiss on her cheek making sure not to wake her up.

I got out of bed and left the room. I wanted to go downstairs to get myself a glass of water and maybe some sleeping pills to help me sleep.

I opened the fridge taking a water bottle out and opening it. I took a sip from it "Angel?! Angel?!" I heard Josephine call for me.

I put the bottle down on the table and ran towards the stairs. I saw her in the middle of them, struggling to get down. She saw me then sat down on the stairs "you scared me.." she said breathing heavily.

I went up towards her and sat down next to her "..I thought something happened to you" she looked at me with sad eyes making me smile. I kissed her lips "I just went to get some water, everything is okay"

"Wake me up again, don't go alone" she said. She's been paranoid since what happened a few days ago. It's understandable, I get really scared too but I feel safer since we got some security guards and that Josephine..saved me.

She put me first. She was risking her life for me. That makes me feel safe.

"Okay I will" she was sweating like crazy and she was breathing heavily "what's happening?" She asked putting her hands over her face "you're having a panic attack.." I held her wrists making her remove them from her face.

I cupped her face and made her look at me. I smiled and rested my forehead on hers "..I love you so much and I've never felt safer with you. You saved my life and I'm so grateful for that"

She held my forearm hardly "just breathe baby..slowly" i exhaled and inhaled so she would copy me and she did.

Her grip around my forearm loosened as she calmed down. She closed her eyes and put her head in the crook of my neck "I don't want you to ever leave my side. Please..just for a bit until I feel like you're safe enough to be alone"

"Baby it's just downstairs-" she lifted her head up and looked at me "promise me you'll never leave my side"

I nodded "I promise"