Atlas Final Happy Place

1: A Memory

Life's exhausting. Time moves painfully slow and there's nothing I can do about it but sit back and watch as the world spins on its invisible axis. Life wasn't always this slow and dull, but all I have now is colourful letters to brighten up my days . Some people want to escape their past but I wish I could run back to it, I wish time would go backwards. Ugh. I hear my door creak..

"Time to go big bro" my little brother murmured without looking up from his game.

"Yea. Ok, but tell mom I'm walking to school"

"Why? You don't like me?!" finally getting his attention, his big grey soppy eyes staring at me.

"You like me that much huh?" smirking "Well if that's the case, I'll ride with you" smiling softly. I should try to keep it together for him, he's still learning about the world and feelings. I'll try my best to be his guide in the dark. Even Though my future is uncertain, I'll continue to try to live in the present for him. I only have one semester left in college and then ..then what? It's okay to not know, I guess but at this age? I should have an idea.

"Atlas, are you coming?!" my mom screamed from downstairs.

"Coming mom! Be right there!" Sometimes I felt misplaced in my family. Everyone was loud, energetic and ambitious but I was quiet, shy and confused about my role in life. I was known as 'confident, fierce, handsome' now I'm 'that sad guy who lost his shit'. Watching the tall luscious trees zoom by with the strong cold breeze hitting my face reminded me of the letter I received last winter. Oh, how I wish time can stop, even for a minute. The letter was all I thought about as we left the lonely trees behind.

To Atlas

It's cold in Alaska but the sky at night is beautiful, it's full of stars from all over the galaxy. Venus takes me outside every night, my only comfort is knowing we're both looking at the same sky together.

My eyes look like diamonds staring fondly at the bright stars at night but it gets lonely.

I wish you were beside me so I can share every step with you.

Venus is well and the doctors are doing everything they can to figure out what's wrong with me.

This letter is short but I just want you to know...I'm always thinking about you. When I wake up in the morning and when my eyes close at night.

I'll get better and come to you so don't worry too much, I don't want to be your burden. Write to me everyday! Your letters are the only thing that keeps me going, Attie. I don't know how much time I have left but getting better isn't impossible. I still have hope. I love you Atlas.

Love, Gravity.

Only if I knew that'd be the last. Nothing really ever went my way so I sadly got used to it.