Never Again .... an untold secret

Secret

My heart felt weighty
when I think of you
Every feelings of you changed
But still its me who holds it
Never want to let it go

The smiles on your face
Made me mad in your love
Every sleepless nights
In the warmth of your hands
The fear of losing you haunted my thoughts

At last it came to an end
No worries No fears
And
No love
Now I know the verity of your smile
The reason for your smile
Not me but someone else
Who owns your heart
The secret you have been stowing away from me

Truth of your fake smiles
Now makes me relaxed
No more feeling of dread toward losing you
Because you are no longer mine
I don't own you
The fact we both know but never told
Stays as a secret in both our hearts
Secret that holds our life together

Don't know how long
It wil be an untold truth
Until you tell me
Placing the ring on my palm
Tromping past this room
And leaving me alone in this halfway.
                      

                         - Purple ink