o.d.

n.h.

i can see how you touch her hand, how she smile.

i can see how you take her to play golf, the way you see her.

i feel how my heart broke in damn pieces. i feel so stupid, so cheesy.

she is so beautiful. she's a model. she's glamorous.

and what i am?

just a stupid dumb-silly girl, with no life.

in love with you.

thinking about you, ni.

thinking about how beautiful models are.

how skinny they are.

thinking about how i can be like them.

but i can't.

i'm sorry, ni. i'm so sorry.

1:25 a.m

-f.v.