Beneath Your Beautiful

Chapter 1: Don't let me get me

Song for this chapter: don't let me get me by Pink

I ran stumbling to the ground but quickly push myself back up, my bare feet hitting the cold tile floor with each step. My heart beats were so loud in my ears. My whole body felt weak and I was aching all over. I was freezing just wearing this hospital gown and the ivy was still hooked into my wrist as I continue running holding the bag in my hand. I could hear the two nurses calling and chasing behind me down the hall trying to stop me. I made it around the bend bumping into the wall but kept going. I could see my dad and Aunt Jenna farther down standing infront of the room I'm trying to get to. Both his hands were covering his face and I could hear faint sobs coming from him as my aunt rubs his back. As I got closer his heart breaking sobs became clearer to hear. I came to a stop standing in the door way looking inside. One of the nurses not too far behind was telling my dad or aunt to stop me. So I walk in heading over to stand by his bedside. He had so many wires hooked up to him and was breathing through an oro-nasal mask that's covering his nose and mouth. I look over to the monitor as the line went up with each beat of his heart but it was so slow and low. I look back at him reaching over to touch his face while thinking this is my fault.

"She shouldn't be up. It's dangerous for her to be moving around so soon." I heard one of the nurse say.

"It's okay, I'll carry her back." My dad told her before walking in. His voice was horse from all the crying.

"You shouldn't be out of bed." He said standing beside me.

"He's going to be okay right? He's going to be find right dad?" I ask taking a few minutes before looking at him. His already red puffy eyes began to water with this sad expression.

"He's......" not being able to finish he paused and his lips start to quiver.

"No" I whisper and it felt like my heart sink all the way to my feet. I shook my head as I fought back sobs threatening to come out...trying to hold onto some type of hope that he'll make it because he has to, he just has to. Suddenly his heart monitor rings off showing a flat line.

"No...no, please don't die!" I shouted grabbing onto his shoulder and started shaking him while my dad was trying to pull me away. The doctor along with a nurse rushed in and immediately tried reviving him. One of the nurses who followed behind me came in leading both my dad and I out the room.

"Please save him...Luke please don't die, we need you!" I screamed trying to get back into the room but my dad kept a tight grip. They ended up closing the door.

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"Spencer!" that oh so loud annoying voice shouts out piercing my ears. I roll my eyes before even opening them slowly raising my head off the desk. I rub one of my eyes looking around the class room and notice all eyes are on me as they snicker...great.

"You fell asleep again!" the teacher Ms.....what's her face said angry. I follow the echo of her voice to find her standing at the back of the class piercing me with her glaring eyes. Ever since the accident I was never able to fall asleep at night no matter how much I try, if I do it's a very short nap and I'm up for the rest of the night. So yeah I have insomnia. But in class I have no problem falling asleep, even though that's still a short nap as well just a bit longer. I take sleeping pills sometimes before going to sleep at night, but not as much as I use to. They're not as effective anymore for me. I drink this herbal tea call yogi every night, the honey lavender flavor. It's supposed to give stress relief but it doesn't really work for me but I still like it.

"Detention" She said before making her way to the front and I just rolled my eyes again this time with them open, nothing new to me. Making it pass a day without detention now a days is a record for me.