Prologue
Someone once asked me; what should prevail in choosing who the best is for you? Is it your heart or mind?
Then I simply answered; our hearts should prevail in choosing who the best is for us. In the first place, choosing a partner is a matter of the heart. We are the happiest if we first satisfy the affairs of the heart. It does not necessarily mean that our minds wouldn't work anymore if we fall in love. Sometimes, of course it may seem like it does but it just follows the affairs of the heart.
Seems so deep, eh?
Eto pa… We have tongues to speak. We have brains to think. We have feet to walk. We have both hands to hold. But most of all, we have hearts to love. So never let your brain do the work for your heart. You wouldn't want your hand to walk for your feet, right?
Even if you've been hurt for so many times, never let go if you think it'll be worth it in the end. I used to always listen to what my brain was dictating me but I ended up being unhappy so I decided to follow my heart instead. Why? Because heart is to love and yes, I became happy because of that. This story may not be like a fairy tale, but it thought me and my sister lessons more than what fairy tales thought us because all those fairy tales are full of shit. That’s true.
I used to dream for a guy that any girl would want. While my sister on the other hand, lived up with that famous saying na first love never dies daw. Nagkamali din siya tulad ko dahil pinilit niyang paniwalaan yung nasa isip niya na yun. But I’m really proud of her. You know why? Kasi just like me, she listened to what her heart was pointing out and there is where happiness and true love caught us.
She did the best thing and she’s very happy about it. Lalo na’t napatunayan niyang hindi totoo yung unang pinaniwalaan niya and she finally realized that true love exists somewhere over there. She finally fell for someone who’s willing to catch her and understand everything about her. Someone who wouldn’t hurt her and will value her feelings towards him and return it at the same time.
In my case, fell in love with someone who’s not my type. Hindi siya mabait, gwapo? Ewan! Yabang kaya nun! Ilang beses akong umiyak because of him. Ilang beses kong hindi nakilala yung sarili ko dahil sa mga nagawa kong hindi ko sukat akalain na makakaya ko. But then again, he’s different. Iba siya. Dahil siya lang ang lalaking kahit ilang beses akong saktan ay hinding hindi ko pa rin pagsasawaang mahalin.
