his diary. tk ✓

;;thirty nine

01.04.2003
3.35 pm

im kim taehyung. jeonggukie's former boyfriend. first of all, jeongguk im sorry, i read your diary. i was at the cafe where we first met. i saw this and opened. and i wanted to let y'know how i was.

i remember. the first time we met. you were having this red diary in your hands. and you came up and asked me, about me. well, i was depressed as hell and i obviously didn't knew what to say.

hmm, what to start first. let me talk about you. you are like a bunny Jeongguk, a giggly bunny, a goofy bunny, a happy pill. when you was talking to me, i felt happy. i felt like a normal human again. who could smile, cry, be angry. i could do that all. but now i feel like a huge part of me dissolved under the deep sea and its like im trying to find it but im getting lost at every point.

namjoon hyung, jin's boyfriend said his cousin liked me. and he asked to spent some time with him. yeonjun is his name. he is good friend, i said about you a lot. i mean i only talks to him about you. so he said we can be friends. he was okay with it.

but jeongguk oh god, i didn't knew you broke up with me because you wanted me to find myself. i thought i really wasn't good enough for you. i blamed myself for these three months. but when i read your dairy i felt i was coming back again, to life.

jeongguk, my bunny, you are everything i have. i have no one other than you. i love everything about you. okay? your baby lotion smell, your roseate lips, your pudgy cheeks, your button nose, your chestnut doe-eyes, your brown fluffy hair, your dainty hands, and importantly you. i love you. and im ready to say it a billion times, heck its trillion times. because i love you and i'll never ever get tired of saying it.

y'know, it hurts so much deep down here thinking that you are gone. oh shit, tears are falling down on this page. haha, it sucks you know. it really sucks that we aren't together anymore.

i just wanna pamper you with my love, i wanna cover you in the finest blanket in the world, i wanna have a future with you, where we'll have kids of our own and we'll have a house by the city with two dogs and we'll be big happy family. but we'll stick with your decision too.

and Jeongguk i did found my happiness at the end. its you. you are my happiness. and Jeongguk, oh my god,i have never felt like i missed you more than now. I MISSED YOU SO MUCH. AND I LOVE YOU A MILLION TIMES.

- your taehyungie hyungie hyung♥
love you jeonggukie