I Still Love You(On Hold)

Part 2

Riddhes's POV

Sitting in my room i was studying for my upcoming exams when felt someone entering my room... Knowing who can it be i didn't turn around... I sighed and continued with my work....

"Won't you welcome your best friend Riddhi? " Questioned Rishi feigning hurt

Why did i get a dramatic friend like him i really don't understand??Sometimes i feel blessed but sometimes i feel irritated and now am feeling that only....

"As if you wait for me to welcome you Rishi! " I said mocking him...

"Oh that i don't because this house is as much mine as it's urs" He said grinning and here i left a helpless sigh..

Why he has to come during my study hours.??

As if other times u stay at home!

Mocked my subconscious.... I shooed him away not wanting to argue with my own self...

"Why are you here now.?? Elaborate plss" I asked Rishi notting down the points of Nuclear Physics on my note pad...

"You are coming for Veer's birthday right? " Rishi asked confused or rather questioned himself being unsure about my decision..

"Veer's birthday??? Today??? But he didn't invite me.. " I asked confused

"Oh!! Comeon Riddhi he has invited everyone...EVERYONE" Rishi said elaborating everyone a little more than usual..

"You go... I won't be going i have works to do" I said dismissing him

"I won't hear a no Riddhi.... It's been a lot now it's enough... It's been years now you don't socialize that much.. You don't party... You habe time for your studies not friends" Rishi complained exasperated

"I don't like all these things Rishi... Go away don't disturb me... For me now my career is important and nothing else... Call me selfish i don't care... Thank god i am selfish now" I said calmly

"I know okay!! It's enough you guys need to talk... Today it's a good opportunity.. I think she is going to come.. Confront her.. Ask her... Talk to her... Staying silent won't solve anything" He said annoyed

"What are you talking about?? Whom to confront and whom to talk with?? I don't have anything to talk... Just go away am not coming" I said feigning confusion..

"Really!! You don't have anything to talk?? Who are you trying to fool???Me??? Am your best friend... Tu jitna bhi bol le ki you don't care... But mujhe pata hain that you care.... Bringing your ego here won't help Riddhi just once talk to Isha.. I know there are some reasons for her step... Try to find out that... I know no not me everyone knows how much she loved you or maybe loves you and how you treated her.... Try and understand the situation at least now... It's not late go win her back... All these years i have seen you.. I have seen how much you miss her but your ego is keeping you back... Remove it and go"Rishi explained me as carefully as possible..

"I don't want to... Hogaya na?? Sun liya?? I don't want to.... She was the one to leave me...but still i didn't question her... I waited for her to come and tell me that everything was a lie and it was a prank.. But she didn't.. I waited for her text, her call but nothing came.... And you say it's my ego?? She chose her career over me.. I never asked her to keep her career aside i always wanted her to progress in life.. But she.. Leave it i don't want to talk about past.. It only gives me pain and betrayal.. "I yelled getting angry at his accusations

He is blaming me.... Where as i wanted to keep the relationship going on...
Our relationship was not like that lovey dovey one.. We had ups and downs... We had a lot of break ups but she was the one to come and mend everything... That was the thing that attracted me towards her a lot.. She knew how to keep but the same girl this time didn't do that... She gave up on me completely... And i never wanted that... But if she wants it then that is it.... I won't force anything on her... I never did nor will....

Isha was a flirty girl... Being an introvert her extrovert nature attracted me more... She somehow made me comfortable around her.. I trusted her... But after getting in a relationship she should have stopped getting that close to boys but she didn't.... And one of my friend told me that she was cheating on me... I was shocked.. I never trusted that friend but her closeness with her guy friends bothered me.. I know she loved me more than what i did.. But somewhere i was insecure... I never expressed myself that much i was always that shy kinda guy.... I wanted to ask her but didn't...

It went for like three months... When i talked about my insecurities with my brother he told me that i should break up with her.... He said that i will be the one getting hurt... I don't know he was wrong or right but as he was by brother and much elder than me i listened to him... From that day i stopped talking to her, i ignored her but isha being isha tried everything to talk to me... I insulted her so that she goes away but she being the adamant girl wanted to know the reason behind my behavior....

I never gave one... I did the same treatment for a year when she couldn't take anymore and stopped her tries.... Riya came to talk to me during that time and i knew it's Isha who had sent her to me... She asked me the reason for my behavior... When i said that i was insecure about Isha, Her closeness with boys affected me a lot that was the day i last saw her talking that openly with boys.... After like a week when she saw i wasn't approaching her she lost her calm and lunged on me... She slapped me for not talking to her about my insecurities... You tell me am a shy boy how can i go and tell her that am insecure... And that was the mistake i did to not express myself... That day we patched up for the first time...

Then started the ritual of us breaking up and then she patching up... Somewhere this thing started affecting me.... Somewhere on social media i saw a video where it was written that we should never get involved too much in anything or anyone because when we loose them we suffer the most.. Trust me that line hit me hard.. And i started distancing myself a little from her.... I loved her no doubt in that but i didn't want to get hurt and end up as a devdas.... Think me as a selfish guy then okay i am!!! Agreed!!

"Don't forget everytime it was Isha who kept the relationship going on... Where were you Riddhi?? Don't say you were equally involved because you were not!! You can hide it from everyone but not from me... I feel Isha also felt the same... This is why am just asking go and talk... You had your reasons maybe she had hers" Rishi's calm voice made me come out of my dazed self...

"No i won't! " I said firmly

"Then fine... Don't but you are coming with me to the party.... Your no won't work... Get ready i have taken permission from aunty.....Na math bol tujhe meri kasam " Rishi warned

"Fine" I said groaning as he has sworn on his name.....

"Good boy.. Now go get ready or else we are going to be late..... " Rishi said grinning lightly...

Sighing i got up and after 30 mins i was ready....

Won't you have any problem with Isha's presence??

Why will i??

No just asking.. Won't it affect you???

No it won't!!

You sure??

100% sure... Her presence or absence doesn't affect me nor do i care..

If that let's you sleep at night....

Mocked my subconscious

"Oh!! Hello mister come out now from your world!! It's been t mins am calling you!! Where are you lost?? " asked Rishi irritated

Sighing i shook my head as no but still the question stays "does her presence still affects me?? " "How is she going to react? " "Should i listen to Rishi?? " "Should i confront her?? " "What if her answer stays a no after that also?? Won't it hurt my self respect?? "

Keeping those thoughts aside i went for the destination....

Jo hoga dekha jayega.... Jo hona hain wohi hoga... Jo hona nahi hain wo nahi hoga....

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I won't ask for anything...
Do as you guys wish for...
I will accept everything....

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