PRIORITIES

"I wish I was brave enough!" I sighed as I slacked myself to the couch. 

 It was a cold evening. I just went home from a full day work. I could feel the evening breeze from the window, so I stood up to close it. The silence was conquering the whole space. Suddenly, the phone rung and its sound was echoing through the entire house. I looked at the empty spaces with a frown. 

"I wish I could bring back the time. They never would've left home. I miss them so much." I thought. 

"H-- Hello?" the voice from the phone was cracking. 

"I knew you weren't there. I was fool to call. I just wanted to say I miss you so much. I wished I told you that long before." I was about to speak but the caller hanged up the call.

Again, the silence was devouring the entire room. I wished to lighten up the room, but I hadn't enough strength to move. I was about to go to the couch, but a sudden noise was heard behind the door. It was strange. I expected no visitors. The door opened- and it was my mom accompanied by my sister. With a bittersweet smile, she walked-- entering my room.

Her eyes were teary. I never saw how broken she was before than tonight. This was the first time. Why? Why was she sad? 

"My b- b-baby, how are y-you?" she could barely speak because of so much grief. She grabbed my picture from the table. 

"You're still beautiful as the day we lost you. You might have felt lonely lately. I should've come here to check you more often. Forgive me, my sunshine!" she burst in tears. 

I had never felt so much weight on my chest before. I was still clueless about her actions but I could not help but to stand still and watch her. Why was she sad? I'm here! What was she talking about? I AM HERE! 

"Mo-" I was interrupted. 

"Mom, I'm sure she's at peace now. Seeing you like that, she would be more heartbroken." my sister uttered while comforting her. 

"She might've felt happier and healthier. Everything was a sudden but she fought bravely from her illness. The things we could only do for her is to accept and stay healthy as well. So, braze yourself, mom! It's okay." she continued while tears were running down her cheeks. 

"Am I? am I gone gone?" I spoke in shock. I could not grasp this thought. How was this possible? I was just came from work. 

Suddenly, a door from my back opened and it seemed like it was calling me. I could not help but to come closer to it. As I come, the settings felt different. A strong light appeared in my eyes and... 

*ring-ring* 

"A dream!" I shouted. 

I sat from the bed trying to catch my breath. 

"What was that?" still in nervous. 

I looked for my phone and called my mom. I talked to her all day long and literally forget everything.

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