there's a piece called you

2jae - you're all i want, so much it's hurting

insert: this started last year (2020). yeah... i got mentally blocked again. so this is on hold ._. sigh~ yes, i know. sigh~ and i still don't know how to finish this, how to end this, how the ending would be. please do leave feedback about this story. it might help me finish this and those unfinished stories i wrote. check them out too after this and do leave feedback there too.

(p.s. i think i wrote this note around the first or second week of january  2021 as it stated that i started writing this 2020 ...refer to end note)

summary/description: well, what would you do or what would you feel if that kind of guy, a perfect guy, confesses to you their feelings for you then suddenly the next morning he's dating someone who is not you?

published: 220429

written: 2012?? - 220427

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"are you sure hyung? i can just ask mom to-

"i'm okay, jisung. it's not like i'll die if i won't be with you this christmas. and besides, it's only for this time, right?"

"yes, yes, i'm sorry. it's just... it's the first time you won't be with us."

"i'll be okay, okay?"

"一and you're alone."

"i told you many times already, i'll be with my friends. i won't be alone. i already asked my friends about it, they said i can stay with them." lies.

"are you really sure hyung? you know一

"jisung, please? i'm tired. holiday is coming, they gave us a lot of tasks."

"i'm sorry, hyung. i'm just一

"worried. yes, i know, and i'm telling you, i'm going to be okay. hyung will be fine. i'll even send you some snaps for proofs. now, stop worrying and let hyung rest, okay?"

a sigh was heard from the other line, "okay, i'll stop. but don't forget about the snaps, okay? i'll be waiting for them."

"yes, yes. hyung promises. pinky swear." he extends his pinky as if the younger was in front of him. "it's locked now. now go take your rest, i know school's been hard for you too. goodbye, good night. i love you."

"okay, good night. i love you too. the snaps okay?"

"yes, yes. bye~" he made some kiss noises before ending the call.

christmas is in twenty-four hours... or more

in all honesty, he was glad when his prof called him few hours ago, saying he's the only one who haven't passed his this semester's individual project which in his defense, he knew nothing about.

he thought it would take him days to finish so days before the holidays starts, he asked his parents if he could skip being with them this christmas, with his unfinished projects as his reasons. since it's about school, they let him. but it only took him few hours. maybe two or three hours in each of two days

he's been wanting to spend his christmas alone. not that he didn't want to be with his family. actually, he only wanted to be with his younger brother, nothing more.

he's always spent his christmas with his family and some relatives. and it gets tiring when they want him to be there only to complain about him. about how lazy he was. about how he should do this instead of that. about how they compare him to his cousins.

he knew he's not the best son out there, but he's trying to be.

on his own way.

he can't just follow others steps expecting with the same result. just because it worked for others doesn't mean it'll work for him.