i'm sorry fluff lovers, mama's gotta feed her angst enthusiasts </3
ANGST! ANGST EVERYWHERE!
NO ONE, AND I MEAN NO ONE, IS SPARED
tw // death, unhealthy coping mechanisms, disordered eating, sleep deprivation, hallucinations(?), alcoholism, drunken violence
also i was right, i got caught up with an unfinished oneshot so i'll post that one last
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- D.A.M.N boys -
{damien}
- he throws himself headfirst into his schoolwork. well, he tried to.
- his grades slip. he can't study. it reminds him too much of you.
- frustrated because he's beginning to fail, but the pain he feels when he tries to study by himself is just too much for him.
- he can almost see you beside him at his dining room table, laughing as you tease him about something silly.
- "always keeping me from working somehow. aren't you, freelancer?"
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{huxley}
- seems okay for the most part, but others can tell his head is somewhere else when he goes quiet.
- every saturday, he goes on a hike as usual. but he goes to your favorite spot.
- he sits and just... talks. like you're there listening. like you always did.
- he could've sworn he heard a faint echo of your laugh in the breeze, brushing across his face.
- "i hope whenever you are now is as beautiful as it is here, freelancer. i really do."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{lasko}
- probably the most shaken by the news of your death.
- tries to be like damien and bury his grief in his counselor work, but it hurts too much to ignore.
- he sat hunched over his desk one night, just sobbing.
- he kept looking up, as if you would be there sitting across from him each time he did.
- "freelancer, i... i-i-i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry!"
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{gavin}
- he doesn't feed. he has no motivation to.
- he tried getting up like normal once, but everything reminded him of you and it just... it hurt too much.
- refuses to get up because your bedsheets still smell like you.
- if he squeezes his eyes shut and clutches a pillow tight enough, he can pretend it's you still in his arms.
- "i miss you more than life itself... my deviant."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{caelum}
- doesn't understand, no matter how many times someone tries to explain it to him.
- convinced you'll come back to give him one last hug.
- he stays with gavin most nights because neither of them can stand the silence of your absence.
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