It was meant

Little child-ish crush

Okay we will move on some years forward, in third grade...
 when everything has changed. I fell in love with... A GIRL!?
 Yes, my ten years old self fell for a girl. Who, not surprisingly, was the girl the primary teacher asked me to sit in in the first year of school. That ''girl'' was different from everybody else... I felt like they are going to be the chosen one forever, their way of being and the way they always were there to help you and just the way they were talking to you. And the lovely look they were giving you with that pretty brown eyes... and how they always told you how much they loved you... this is what it made me fall in love for them, not their look neither their money, just their kind and precious way of being made me think that ''Yes! They are the one!''.

 I always was giving them little signs like little kisses on the forehead or I dunno, hugs or something, I always was hinting them but they never actually seemed to care, never actually seemed to give any signs of love in more than a friendly way towards me which was making me sadder by the days passed.

 And summer vacation finally came. Me and them made so many plans how it will be, how I will always be hanging out with them and how always I will be going at their house and how happy and how much fun we will be having this one summer. It was the time, the time when I was gonna have my first sleepover! I was so excited, I planned to tell them that I like them, that I am really in love with them! I annoyed a whole week my mum to talk with their mother to have a sleepover, and we did.

 Next week it was bois, next week!
 I got my little pokemon backpack on my shoulders, chin up and got in my dad's car, and we drove to their house.
 We had fun, we went out, we had lunch, dinner, we played and so on. Now, it was night time, it was our bedtime, I told them I have a fear of dark and they told me I could sleep in the same bed as them... I said no! that's when they ... they confessed to me! I was in shock, I was scared I was panicked, I was looking in my left and right, my cheeks were all red and... I rejected them.

 Surprisingly, I know. As I described how much I liked them and I rejected them...
I was just so scared they have actually found out I liked them and uhm that they were just making fun of me. Haha, I know I know, it seems all very fluffy and very serious just for a 3rd graders love, little silly crush everybody has at that age most people would think, but it wasn't really like this in my case, I guess... anyways!