Overdosed..

Part 1

"Babe, I'm home!" I call out but got no response.

That's weird, Matty usually answers or comes to hug me whenever I return home to our apartment. Is he mad at me? No, he can't be mad at me? I don't do anything for him to get mad at me..

Maybe, he's just busy with work right now..Eh, I just put my keys on our key rack and throw my bag onto our couch.

"Babe? You here?" I ask again hoping for a response.

No response again? He doesn't work with headphones in so he would definitely hear me. I know Matty and he doesn't typically do this.

I know he's here...his car was in the parking lot when I pulled in. He might've gone out with friends who picked him up.

"Ba—" I start but then I see him...

He was lying on our bathroom floor...Pills were everywhere like they were knocked over...

"Matty!!! Matt, answer me!! Open your eyes!! Matty, please!!" I say nudging him.

No...He couldn't have...Please, Matty!! Why..? Why...after 6 years...? I love him so please...please wake up..

"Matty, come on! This isn't funny..!!" I say while tears are streaming down my face.

Why...? I knew it wouldn't get him to wake up..He had overdosed...I need to call 911! I grab Marty's phone and dial 911...

"Hello, 911 here. How may I help?" A woman asks.

"I need...I need an..I need an ambulance! My b-boyfriend...I think...I think he ov-overdosed...Please come..please come quickly.." I say through tears.

"Can we have an address please? I'll send help as soon and as quick as possible." The woman replies.

"xxxx Xxxxxxxx xxxxx Apt. 143." I say..

I was just there..crying..Why, Matty? Why did you have to overdose!? Why now..? I was going to ask him to marry me..so why!? Why did you have to do this to me??

I love Matty..he's my boyfriend!! He was my boyfriend...of 6 years!! Why did he have to do this?? Why...?

I heard the siren growing nearer and nearer..Please, don't be dead, Matty. I can't do this without you..! I knew Matty was going through difficult times but this...this isn't the answer...I needed him!!

././/./.

I hear my apartment door unlock and I knew they were here..Please Matty...Please still be alive!! Tell me they got here in time!! Tell me..Tell me you can still save his life!!

"Hurry! We can't waste any time!" I hear the doctors say.

"Sir..can you please get out of the way so we can get to him?" A doctor asks.

I could hardly move, but I knew I had to if I was going to have a chance that Matty wasn't dead...if he was still alive!!

"M-Matty.." I say.

"It's okay..It's going to be okay.." A doctor said.

././/./.

I was lucky enough to ride in the ambulance with Matty to the hospital. The whole time someone was with me trying to calm me down as I was having a panic attack and still crying after finding Matty like that..

However..it might've been too late...I should've called the second I found Matty...Maybe..maybe then, he might've had a better chance of living...

"Excuse me? Are you related to this patient here?" A doctor asks.

"Y-yes..I am.." I reply.

"What's your relationship to him?" The doctor asks.

"B-boyfriend..I-is he alive..?" I ask.

"Miss! Get back in here! We need all the help we can get! We're losing him!" Another doctor says.

No...Please don't die, Matty..! I need you...I can't do this without you..Please Matty...Please be alive...Please...don't do this to me...

Then I heard it...The sound of that life machine..You know the thing that beeps with the beat of your heart? Well..I recognize the sound of someone's heart flatlining on that machine...Matty is dead..I just lost my best friend...my boyfriend...

I just broke down screaming when I heard that..Doctors and nurses alike were trying to calm me down. My boyfriend was dead...

Eventually...they got me to calm down. I was devastated..I wanted to just die...all so I can see Matty again..

(One Week Later)

It's been a week...a week and all I can think of is Marty's death...I was not over it..I was depressed..Why wouldn't I be..? My boyfriend was dead..and he died of a suicide by overdosing...

I was sitting in the library doing homework for one of my classes. I was in my last semester but I just wasn't able to get my stuff done...I just couldn't let go of Matty...

"Hui!" Someone says getting my attention to me.

"Huh?" I ask.

"Are you okay? You were staring off into space.." Mia, one of my friends asks concerned for me.

"I-I'm fine, Mia." I say.

"Are you sure? You've been acting weird for a week now..and where's Matty?" Mia asks.

"Matty..He's.." I try to say.

"You've been depressed lately..? Are you sure you're fine..?" Mia asks.

"Marty's dead, Mia..He overdosed last week...The doctors couldn't save him.." I say.

"I...I'm so sorry, Hui..." Mia says.

"I should go.." I say grabbing all my stuff.

"Hui...wait!" Mia says but I just wanted to be alone.

"Just let me be alone, Mia." I say.

I walked home as I wasn't far from my apartment building. I just needed to be alone..I don't how much I can take right now, especially when Matty is still on my mind...