A Love Letter (One shot story)

One Shot Story

I remember the first time you talked to me. I was confused why the heck this gorgeous guy talking to a potato like me? I look ugly and seeing with him standing beside me is a dream come true.

"Hi miss, diba kaklase mo si Amelia? Can you please give this to her?"

I was fascinated on how his calm and sweet voice is. I look at the thing his holding. A stem of rose? Why Blake will give Amelia a rose?

"Uhm yes I'm her clasmate" I answered awkwardly while receiving a flower from him and blushing thinking that it's for me.

"That's great! Give this to her miss at paki sabi galing kay Blake Quiro from section B. Thank you." then he exit with a wide smile on his lips. Tinutukso pa siya at binabatuk-batukan ng mga kaibigan niya.

Yeah great. Who am I joking? Ako bibigyan ng rose ni Blake? It will only happen kapag pumuti na ang uwak so that means it will never happen.

Pain stung in my heart as I thought of Amelia and Blake being together. Bagay sila dahil parehas silang pogi at maganda. Ganon ba talaga? Ang pogi ay para sa maganda lang? Kaya hinding hindi talaga siya mapapansin ni Blake dahil hindi naman siya maganda. Wala siya sa kalingkingan ni Amelia.

She continue to walk to her classroom with a heavy feeling inside her heart. As soon as she approach Amelia, she immediately give the stem of rose.

"Para raw sayo from Blake of section B" I simply said and go to my proper seat. Glancing at Amelia's direction and seeing how she was teased by her friends who's around her.

Maganda na matalino pa, talented at famous. She's really blessed. No wonder why Blake likes her.

Insecurities filled inside her as she look at Amelia for one last time hoping she'll be like her. How she wished na katulad nalang sana siya ni Amelia para sana mapansin din siya ni Blake.

We are now in senior highschool, grade twelve to be exact as the news bombed in the whole school that Blake is courting Amelia. Funny how time flies so fast that I think last school year since I had a chance to talked with Blake and asking me for a favor. And now he's doing everything to get Amelia's sweet "yes"? Great.

Parang isa pa ako sa naging dahilan para mapasagot niya si Amelia. I hate myself for agreeing na ibigay yung pinapasuyo niya. Mas lalo ko lang sinasaktan ang sarili ko. Nakakainis. And I hate myself for reacting and overthinking this way! As like I have a reason and right to feel this. It's frustrating me. Sa tingin mo ba talaga Bea mapapansin ka niyan ni Blake? Dream on!

I exhaled heavily as I talked to myself and overthinking again from all the negative thoughts that comes in my mind.

Napagpasiyahan ko nang tumayo para bumili ng pagkain kasi breaktime na namin. Pagdating ko sa cafeteria ay punong-puno ng mga estudyante at ang ingay. Sa bawat sulok ng cafeteria ay mga estudyanteng kumakain at nagkukuwentuhan ang nakikita ko.

"Amelia, here!" napalingon ako sa tumawag kahit hindi naman ako si Amelia. I saw one of my classmates and her friends in one table. Some of them are familiar to me and some are not, maybe they are from other section or strand. Amelia immediately walk towards them and join to their table.

Maghahanap na sana ako ng mauupuan nang marinig ko ang hiyawan mula sa lamesa nila Amelia. Napalingon agad ako and I saw Blake with a bouquet of flowers and stuff toy in his hand, looking shy as he give it to Amelia. Everyone in that table is teasing them and Amelia was blushing while stopping her friends to stop the tease.

"Yun oh! Ang sipag talaga ng manliligaw mo kung ako yan sasagutin 'ko na agad yan" as they all laughed in that joke, napapansin na rin sila ng ibang estudyante na malapit lang sa table nila na nakikiasar na rin.

"Uy ano ba kayo HAHAHA tigilan nyo na nga yang si Amelia at namumulang kamatis na!" dagdag pa ng kaibigan niya na kaklase ko.

"Mainit kasi" palusot ni Amelia habang pinapaypayan ang sarili na namumula na sa kilig o kahihiyan sa asar ng mga kaibigan niya.

"Oh Amelia paupuin mo naman yang malugod mong manliligaw!" they are still continuing teasing them as Amelia offer the chair beside her to Blake. Mas lalong naghiyawan at lumakas ang asaran nang maupo si Blake sa tabi niya. Some of Amelia's friends we're pushing them para lang magdikit sila.

Another pain stung in my heart as I watched how happy and look good they are. Bagay na bagay nga sila. Everyone is shipping them.

I look at Blake who have a very wide smile on his face. Having a conversation with others on their table at minsan ay sumusulyap-sulyap kay Amelia kahit may ibang kausap.

He looks happy, they are both happy. Nasasaktan ako sa naiisip kong kailan man ay hinding hindi ako mabibigyan ng ganyang katamis na ngiti ni Blake katulad ng binibigay niyang ngiti kay Amelia.

Sino ba naman ako? Sino ba naman ako para bigyan ng matamis na ngiti ni Blake? I'm just a no one. He even called me "miss" the last time we talked so that only means he didn't know me, kahit pangalan ko pa.

I have a crush on him since we're in grade ten. Naging crush ko siya noong nanalo siya bilang mister popularity in school. It's been three years since I've known him and I don't even know if this feelings is only crush or paghanga! Baka nga lagpas pa doon or worst I might be falling in love with him!

In my second year college when I heard the news from one of my classmates that Amelia and Blake are now officially together and that's when I realized too that I'm now falling inlove with Blake Quiro. Nakuntento ako na mahalin siya kahit sa malayo, kahit na alam kong walang pag-asa.

Bakit? Bakit umaasa pa ako sa isang laban na una pa lang alam ko ng talo?
No scratch it. Bakit ako lumaban at sumugal kahit wala namang laban?

Nagsisi ako. Nagsisi ako na umamin ako sa kanya na mahal ko na siya. Kahit sabihin pa natin na walang pangalan yung binigay kong love letter na inipit sa locker niya nagsisi ako na ginawa ko yun. Nakita ko na tinapon niya lang sa malapit na basurahan yung ilang gabi kong pinagpuyatan. Ilang dasal at desisyon ang inilaan ko sa paggawa ng love letter na 'yon, at kung ibibigay ko ba. Pero ngayon? Sising-sisi ako.

It's hurt to feel that my feelings is invalidated. Nasasaktan ako sa isipan na ang babaw ng nararamdaman ko para itapon niya yung letter na 'yon. That letter is equal to my feelings towards him. At ngayon na tinapon niya, parang tinapon niya na rin yung nararamdaman ko.

It's already dark when I got home. Di ko na namalayan ang oras dahil sa pagmuni-muni ko. I saw the unfamiliar car that was parked in our garage. Sinawalang bahala ko lang iyon at di na pinansin dahil na rin sa bigat na nararamdaman ko.

Nakita kong may mga tao sa sala namin at dire-diretso lang ang lakad ko habang nakayuko because I don't want to disturb them from their business. As soon as I approach the stairs, my mom called me.

"Bea, anak!" she excitedly called me.

I went to their direction to greet them. I eyed them one by one as I suddenly stop and stare to a one person who's the reason why I'm hurting right now.

Why Blake is here? My heart race as I look at him. But I'm shocked on how he smiled at me. Wtf? Mom saw my reaction but I'm more shocked on what she said.

"Oh Blake! This is Bea my daughter, and this is Blake" then mom looked at me.

"Your cousin."