Sometimes I cry myself to sleep thinking through the thoughts of you,
...and
Sometimes I wake up crying over the thoughts of what you put me through.
The ups
The lows
The heifers
The whoes
Angel and bitch all from the same anchor of behold
You
cheated me outta my ability
to self-actuality
deleted who I wanted to be
congruently replicated me
to satisfy your reality
Suffocated by death's liability
inhaled the life out of me
replacing her with me
vicariously
thoroughly
you failed to be
of any kind of positivity
You shattered the only thing
that meant anything
Omitted my first seed to be
Committed trauma to escort me
You sheltered me from everything
then threw me out in it
with nothing.
No Hopes
No dreams
Just misery
You shifted the direction
of my affections
criticizing my imperfections
Deception at it's best
Cheating my God given elections
I never discovered my gifted acclimation
still in anticipation
You shouted endlessly
about my mindless behavior
routed me carelessly
into a listless stupor
I never could regroup her
running outta time for a prosperous future
I wish you could have saved her too
instead your stuck with me and I with you.
Til the end, forever.
