Childhood Friend || Shouko Nishimiya x Y/n

part 5

Warning:there is some angst in this part it includes self-harm suicide, bullying etc so if this triggers you please do not read any further.

You looked back at shouko and smiled as your h/c hair started to flow through the breeze. Shouko noticed this and got up to close the window she stood in front of the window for a few seconds after closing it you admired her from there. you're hair stopped flowing as well as hitori and shoukos you stared at shoukos hair noticing how there was barely any knots at all whereas yours was knotty and messy af.

You notice the way she was staring out of the window so you decide to get up and look at what she was staring at.

She was staring at a bridge with water underneath. Shouko doesn't notice you and walks into the balcony still staring at the bridge and just stares at it.

You turn your head towards hitori and give her a worried yet confused look. Hitori gets up and stands next to you. Shouko just stands on the balcony and starts to sob and sob and sob for what seemed like hours. She grips onto the balcony railing and rests her head on it as well.

You and hitori walk towards her and wrap an arm around her comfortingly but to your surprise she pushes the both of you away she starts to sob even harder than before which caused you to tear up.

It seemed like this was going on for so so long and it broke your heart to see her like this. You start to sob and cling onto her arm pulling her away from the balcony trying to get her to tell you what was wrong.

Hitori stands there and has no idea what to do so she sits back down on shoukos bed.

You eventually gain enough strength to pull shouko back into her room and close the balcony window or whatever.

She stares at the ground (She is not sobbing anymore but she is teary) you pull her chin up and get her to look at you. You stare into her beautiful eyes memorizing them.

You let go of her chin and start to sign in broken sign language asking her what was wrong she starts to tell you guys all about the bullying that was going on and what they did to her she cries out as if in need for help she tells you about how she asked to be their friend but they told her to commit suicide and would beat her.

You and Hitori were in shock you couldn't believe what they did to her.

You cry harder than you ever had before, you couldn't stop crying you cried so hard you could barely breath Shouko stared at you and hugged you tightly to comfort you she let you cry into her for what seemed like forever.

You eventually stop crying and start to laughter at how pathetic you were you lift your head up and Shouko smiles at you.

Yuzuru walks in on this whilst Hitori is on her phone doing whatever the hell she's doing.

Yuzuru stops in her tracks and grabs her camera and immediately starts to take pictures of you two, you and Shouko didn't realize this and you two are still laughing together and hugging, it must  look really romantic you think to yourself but you didn't care as long as you were with Shouko.

About five hours later you and Hitori are back in you're hotel room. You are texting Shouko but she wasn't answering which worried you deeply.

Shouko's POV
My phone keeps on going off.. Just leave me alone to die please. I thought in silence
I stare down at the river underneath staring at the beautiful koi fish I smile lightly at them, I was happy that I was going to die with them I watch the gentle water slowly move.
I decide that before I go that I should quickly send a goodbye message to Y/n.
The text reads" Hey Y/n I deeply apologize for my horrid behavior towards you, you won't have to deal with it anymore, I just want to let you know that I love you and I will think of you before I go,lots of love Shouko Nishimiya xoxo"
I put my phone back down on my bed for whoever finds it and I climb onto the balcony railing preparing to jump off of it.
I close my eyes and fall forwards and fall down to my death I open my eyes again and look at my scars from that one knife under my bed they still haven't healed.
I smile happy that I can finally go in peace without interupptions I suddenly drop into the water and hit the bottom and felt my body go numb.

Y/ns POV
I hear my phone go off I immediately pick it up and read it it's from Shouko it says " Hey Y/n I deeply apologize for my horrid behavior towards you, you won't have to deal with it anymore, I just want to let you know that I love you and I will think of you before I go,lots of love Shouko Nishimiya xoxo" I read it over and over again wondering what she meant from before I go, she wasn't going to move again was she? I thought to myself I read it over again and suddenly realized that she was commiting suicide once you realized this you started to uncontrollably sob and you ran out of your hotel without a coat or shoes and you ran to shoukos house, barging in and rushing to shoukos room, her phone was on her bed but there was no sign of Sho herself I notice her balcony window open and I ran toward s it and look down I see shouko lying there helpless I ran out of the house and into the water I pull her out of it and phone bathe ambulance for help.

The ambulance arrived within minutes and pick her up and take her to hospital without saying a word well barely anyway.

You sob and sob and sob waiting for the hospital to phone you about her, you had only seen her once in like seven years and now she could be dead!? Why wasn't I there to save her? Why didn't I help her more? You ask yourself blaming yourself for everything you started to wonder if you should commit suicide as well to be with shouko.

Sorry for this sad chapter I wanted to add some angst into the fanfic so sorry but I actually made myself cry writing this lmao

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