𝐑𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐞? (𝐀𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐱 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐟𝐞𝐦! 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫)

♡~𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟖~♡

*for context anything in bold is y/n's thoughts.*

No, no this can't be right. It can't be him, she's fucking lying.

You walked up to Mikasa and pulled her shirt, inches away from each others face.

"Mikasa, you're fucking lying." You said aggressively as you spoke in a low tone.

Mikasa quickly pushed you off of her. "I'm not lying y/n, why would I lie about that, he's my best friend!" Mikasa cried.

You leaned against the wall of the bathroom as you looked at Mikasa.You were in complete shock. How? How did you not know? "How did you find out?" You asked quietly, a single year dropping from the corner of your eye.

"I was over at Eren's house, this was a week or two before you came. I was sneaking out because I knew I wasn't supposed to be there at the time. I was walking down the stairs before I heard about Zeke and Armin arguing."

-Flash back Mikasa's POV-
"It's not my fucking fault! There's more to the story you don't know about Zeke!" I heard Armin yell as I heard walking on the hardwood floors of downstairs.

I suddenly heard a slam of something dropping on the floor. I was about to speak before Eren held me by one arm and covered my mouth with the other.

"Well what do I not know about Armin!? Hm? Because in order for this to be dealt with I need to know everything! So you better get to explaining and stop with that mysterious bullshit!" I heard Zeke yell.

I make intense eye contact with Even as I breathe heavily into his hand, tears forming in the corner of my eyes as he looks at me with pure guilt.

"You don't get it... he was trying to hurt... me." I heard Armin speak in a quiet, sad tone.

"What?! So you stab MY business partner 28 times?!!" Zeke yells before he let's out an exasperated sigh. I hear nothing from Armin not even a sound.

"I get that he was quite... annoying. But tell me Armin, I need to know. What happened?" I hear Zeke say in a now calm, negotiable tone.

That's when Eren motioned at me to go upstairs. With no hesitation, I walked up the stairs quickly as Eren stayed down stairs, intruding on the argument.

-Flashback over; Y/n POV-
You sat on the floor of the bathroom near a mirror, most of the time you would never subject yourself to show this level of pain to someone.

"Why did no one tell me?" You asked in a quiet but defeated tone.

"We didn't want things to fuck up between you and Armin, and if anything we're not trying to have the news spread around." Mikasa answered as she leaned against the edge of the sink.

You got up and wiped your tears, also making sure your makeup was still okay.

"Well, let's go get these snacks." You said in a cheerful tone, while Mikasa looked at you in concern.

You knew you weren't okay, you also knew that you felt betrayed and heartbroken, but why let that get to you?

You also knew that you would eventually have to make a choice, will you still be there for Armin after all this or would you have to dip?

-Later in that night in your room-
Everyone went home and Mikasa decided that it would be nice to have a sleepover, and honestly you agreed. It would help you not think about the guy that you like killing another man.

Y'all were in your room and for the first time in hours, you felt okay.

(Y/n's room)

You and Mikasa sat around the room and chilled after smoking two blunts. That's when you started talking.

"So, how are you feeling?" Mikasa asked you in a hesitant voice. You sat up from you bed and looked at her with a blank expression.

How did you feel? I mean you did just find out that the guy you liked killed someone yet here you are smoking a blunt like it's a normal thing. Then again what else could you do, it's not like anyone could know about it or else there would be a bigger issue.

"Conflicted." You said in a quiet, low tone.

"I mean, what am I supposed to do? I can't help, I didn't kill him. Then again I can't tell anyone. Me knowing doesn't do shit but hurt me." You said as you took a long drag from your blunt.

Mikasa looked at you in worry. You suddenly heard a knock from your door.

"Come in!" You said loudly as you paused the quiet background music playing in the room.

"Hey, I just wanted to say that if you're hungry that there's some pizza we ordered. Feel free to it whenever." Zeke said with a smirk as he stuck his head in letting me and Mikasa know.

"Alright, thank you." You and Mikasa said at the same time.

As Zeke closed the door and footsteps faded, you spoke. "I'm just trying to forget about it to be honest. It's not going to keep me from liking him." You said as you smiled at Mikasa, for the first time you didn't feel worried about what was happening.

You knew Zeke would take care of it, and you knew it would be okay either way. You just wanted to live in the here and now, fuck the rest of that stuff.

You went on your phone and played What You Heard by Sonder as you and Mikasa spoke about random things for the rest of the night.

-Later in the middle of the night-
Mikasa was asleep but you had the late night munchies, with that being said you remembered the pizza Zeke had mentioned and immediately began to sneak downstairs, not wanting to wake anyone up.

You approached the kitchen before you saw Armin in the kitchen drinking water. With his shirt off.

You didn't pay any mind to it as you walked to the pizza box that layed open on the counter. "Hey y/n." He said in a nervous tone.

"What's up Armin." You said with a smile. You couldn't help but stare at him with his nicely tone body, he wasnt as buff as Eren and Zeke but his body was definitely nice.

You continued staring at him as he blushed, "Why are you looking at me like that?" You walk over to him, standing just inches away from his body. You always found it so crazy that such a thin layer of clothing felt as if it would keep you and another person apart.

You looked at him with low eyes and slightly parted lips as he stood, back against the cold marble counters.

"Armin..." You started as you trail off, getting lost in the absolute beauty he held. "Yes y/n?" He said nervously.

You took your hand and dragged it from his cheek it his chest, "You know I will like you regardless of what you do, right?" You ask as you look at him, watching him start to breathe heavily, feeling his chest move. Up and down, up and down again.

"Y/n..." Armin said quietly as he placed his hands on your hips gently.

You felt yourself grow hotter and more anxious for his touch. You took your index finger on your right hand and dragged it from his chest back to his face, look at him as you gently kissed his cheek, earning a small whimper from him.

Abruptly, you moved his hands from your hips and moved your body away from his. You whispered into his ear.

"If you want me as much as I want you..." You trailed off before finishing your sentence.

"Then prove it." You said with a smile as you looked at him from the side of you eyes.

You walked away, grabbing the pizza box and retreating back to your room.

*heyyy, I'm sorry the chapter was so short. I just wanted y'all to get something this week cuz ik im finna be busy but trust I will try to update again some time soon. Thanks:)*