Hey, guys, Sidney here.
I don't know how many people know this, but I have gotten into quite a few fights with people on here. They usually end with me blocking people for harassment or for bullying me. On a few occasions a bunch of my readers have stood up for me, and reported whoever the girl was.
Today, another girl decided to harass me on here, and then another girl started messaging one of my friends on a different social media account and started going off about me helping other writers, and me having crappy books.
I know my writing isn't the best, and I do love it when people decide to try and help me improve, but hearing that this chick would go and say something like that to a person she didn't even know, who was my friend, and then turn around and tell her that she didn't have a good book either, is just not right.
I don't know who this girl is, trust me if I knew, she would be gone soon. I would make sure that happened.
The reason, I am telling you all this (literally I'm posting this in all of my current books) is to tell you guys the truth.
When I was little, I had speech therapy and a processing disorder. Pretty much that means, I don't learn the same way everyone else does. Jokes said in class confuse me a lot of times, and writing was never something I could do.
Since joining Wattpad, I've grown so much as a writer, and still have so much room to grow, which is why I welcome people willing to help me grow as a writer. I know, I am not the best, and I have asked people to read my books, not so I can get more reads or for it to become popular, so that way those people will give me honest opinions on my books. I have since stopped, but that is because I have a group of people who I know now will call me on my crap I write.
Writing has been a guardian angel to me, over the past year and a half I've been on literally the 16th was my 1 1/2 year anniversary on here. The friends I've made, and the books I've read have helped me through a lot of tough times.
I've struggled with depression since sophomore year (i'm currently a senior) and junior year when I joined I was at my breaking point. Being able to write away how I feel, and be able to express something in my mind, has helped me a lot.
I don't know, why people hate on others, the way they do, but I can tell you it sucks.
Today was the first time, someone, who no one can figure out who it is, has actually talked crap about me to another person. By not knowing who they are I mean their user, is literally unknown. I don't know, why people feel the need to hide behind the shadows when they bully people on here, it isn't like we would ever meet, but I believe it is because that person is scared of me. I don't know why, but that is why bullies are bullies, they are scared or jealous, of the things others have that they don't.
What the person said about me hurts, a lot.
Not because it was about my writing, but because, they didn't have the decency to tell me it to my face. We don't know, if they even post books on here, so how am I suppose to take their word for granted. When I receive stupid things like, your book sucks, from people who don't post things on here, it makes me sick.
I get that my writing isn't one of the top ten on here, but at least I have the courage to show people my work, and try and get better. Instead, of being someone afraid. I pity the person, who said those things about me and about my friend.
They are going to live a sad and lonely life, if they don't start growing up.
Because you know what.
I am not a future New York Best Selling Author. I am an artist. I put myself out there in every piece of art I do, but that is not only it. I am a storyteller. I am an animator and director. One day people, might not be reading my books, but will be watching the films I helped produce. I might never be a big named director, but I will be the very best I can be.
Not because I am the best, but because I try.
Every day I try, to get better. Whether it is as a writer, or as an artist. I am trying. When I comment things, on other stories. I am not trying to be mean. I am trying to get people to understand, that I want to help them, as so many our helping me.
You want to know, the type of films I plan to direct in the future. Documentaries. I hope that one day I will be able to film the beauty of the world, that so many are destroying.
To tell you the truth, people who hate on other. People who think less of others, they are the ones that our destroying our world.
My junior year was crap, like my love was tennis, but after that year I had nothing. I found writing, and because of that I believe in the world again, and you don't know how hard that is for me to do.
I stopped being able to trust people in the third grade, I don't know how to let people in, and it is hard enough for me to come out of my shell, but that isn't going to stop me.
I stopped believing in giving up a long time ago, and for some reason that makes people hate me.
I know what it is like to be bullied, and have people try to tear you down. I've had 'friends' who gain my trust just to tear me down.
After the last year, my junior year, I was done.
I don't let people do crappy things to me anymore, and since I've started this, my life has been so much happier. My depression has lessened, literally I've only thought about killing myself once or twice in the past four months.
The only thing that has never happened to me is I've never been abused, which to some people makes everything I've endured pointless, but I know more about helping people that have been in darker times than me.
I don't want to see anyone get hurt the way, I do on here, so if anyone ever gets threats or harassed by people on here, message me immediately. I don't want you to get hurt.
Everyone is worth something, and everyone has a future. Whether it is as a writer, or as being a business women. Everyone has a place in this world, and you should never forget that.
Sidney xxx
