Mama why me?

The little girl only wants her Mama to understand. "I miss him to but, mama, why do you weep for the man who beat till you couldn't feel your feet, I know your mad because you think it's my fault, by why mama...... Mama are you there, I can't see you, are you far or near? Mama why me? Mama why beat me is it out of fear of the man who beat you till you couldn't feel even your feet? I miss him to mama, mama I miss those days were we walked along the beach, hand in hand, smiles so big they neared the size of the ocean, mama I miss him to unlike you, you miss the man who controlled your breath, I miss him in the way that he smiled and I knew he truly loved me and me for me, he told me once before the first hit that he loved you in the way you let him pound the fact he owns you into your bones, not long after he told me I had done wrong that I needed a lesson, as I felt those pounds apon my head, he told not to tell that it was him, he told me to tell when they came to take me far far away that you had done it for you thought I needed more manners. Mama why did I say it was him, I realized once he was away in the far far away in the world of hell, that he was trying to protect me from the real hell that lies apon your heart, I wish I knew that when they showed up to take me away, the number of beatings that came from you would add up to none, I wish I wish everyday you hit me that I would have told them it was you, one beating compaired to countless beatings from you, so mama I'll ask again. Mama oh mama why me? What have I done this time, you beat me far, far and further everyday, are you happy now? Can you see me everyday? Can you feel my pain? Can you hear me? You think I'm far away, that I'm okay, that I'm happy where I'm at, mama don't you know? You put me in a grave, you think I wanted to be put under, that I was glad to go, but mama guess what I see your pain everyday, you never saw mine, so mama do you have the feeling of regret yet? Or do I need to asked once more again, it will be the last time, if you don't get it yet, then that will be that and I'll take my leave of you so you can have at least that peace of having no children or family, can you see my ghost now, but for the last time, Mama why me?"

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