Poem,
Intense pleasure sought out breathlessly
Wanton hedonism fits the bill
Another day another fix
New ways to enjoy life and luxury
Today is a party
Tomorrow is an after thought
Only thing that matters is the now
Breathing new people and chemicals in daily
Every new experience blossoming an urge
Here and now never truly lasts when tomorrow comes
After your fix your contentment wanes
People aren't enough anymore nothing is enough
Potential is squandered on cheap tricks
Youthful exuberance wears off like a drug
Poem"
Tears and a couch
Is all I have left
Barren white walls
They make me recall
The outline you made in my life
Now only faint lines
Fainter memories bare witness
To our intimate times
They summon tears of yester year
As I wish for yesterday
At the expense of tomorrows
And todays
Poem;
Internal words bring internal bleeding
Applying pressure to the mentality
Mashing up preconceived notions of what's healthy
Now it's a race to find what normal feels the best
Or is it a futile attempt to label behavior as normal
To feel better about the trauma and doubts
Soaring over the pain and insecurity like a bird
Too bad there is a hunter with a shotgun at every corner
Ready to ground you deep in reality
Overwhelmed with the sheer number of obstacles
New feelings are squashed by larger old feelings
Growing is hard to do when you have so many emotional weeds
Energy is depleted each day to just coast the rest of the day
Nightmares plague sleep until sleep in no longer an escape
Only time will tell is said but never believed
Ugly faces stare back in the mirror until they shatter
Getting better is a fantasy now an illusory miracle
Hell sounds like heaven if it means feeling something
Poem'
When did I start Wasting away
Hurting is a very Human thing to do
Anxiously blink DaYs into memories
Today is only an After image of what yesterday wants to be
A fantasy which Mangles your mind into a morose membrane
Mastering your Inner self means growing into something that can be tamed
Isolating better Halves instead of indulging in full reflection
Dotting out all Eyesores until your blemishes speak out in ravenous hunger
Outraged that Retribution is not attained by reconciliation
Ingest toxicity Exacerbating not your tolerance but your reaction
Never satiated but craving nothing
Gone are the things that can satisfy within
Poem?
Drowning in air
Each gulp prolongs the suffering
The oxygen keeps my body feeling the pain
The façade of numbness is gone
Just raw flesh and emotion
Stimulated by all
Each word rips, every glance shreds
My mind breaks like window glass
I find solace in nothing
Like a man hiding behind a pebble
All is exposed, I am exposed
The very fabric of my existence
Tears apart and is sewed back together by a donkey
I am nothing
But everything that can fit in a bread box
You feel emotion
I feel the universe tugging at my loins
Begging me to impregnate it
With gallant offspring
To fight space mermaids
