I remember when I let go of astronomy,
I didn't go see the eclipse out of will,
denying myself any of the things that have once brought me joy
thinking I didn't deserve it,
thinking I didn't deserve to see something so magnificent and beautiful,
but I still live in regret for not going out there and go
I do, I do deserve to see it, regardless of everything that was happening,
regardless whether my parents were fighting and feeling like it was my fault for not ending it,
because I didn't understand you can't control people
I wish I didn't give up on that,
for now I struggle to even remember single thing upon the past, present and future
but one day, I'll see the stars again
I'll see the sun and moon, I'll see the universe again
someday
