Gentle Angel

One shot

You begin to wake up, you start to become aware of the noises around you. Your eyes are still closed and you begin to feel eyes on you. You slowly blink your eyes open, adjusting to the soft gloomy light in the room. You look over and see Bucky watching over you. You yawn and rub your eyes and begin to adjust yourself when you remember you fell asleep next to him on the floor. He notices you strain when you feel the hardwood floor beneath you.

"You should've stayed in bed Y/N" he mutters.

Without looking at him, "Did you sleep?" You ask.

"Y/N I..." before he finishes you interrupt and look at him straight in the eyes, "Did you sleep James?"

"I did" he whispers.
"Did you have any nightmares?" You reach your hand onto his face.

"No," he says looking down at your reach.

"We will move to the bed when you're ready." You say as you caress his face.

"Thank you Y/N, you don't have to do this." He says.

"So are you thankful or?" You joke.

"I am." He responds

"Then you don't have to say anything after thank you besides maybe my name or something cute you'd like to call me." You adjust yourself closer to him.

"I find myself always needing to be saved." He says

"You say that as if that's a bad thing Bucky. People need saving sometimes. You've been through so much in what 70 years? I wish I would've saved you from all that pain. But what matters is that you're healing now. You're accepting of the help.. some what.. and that's enough. If laying on this floor will help you rest then I'll do it forever." You say into his chest.

"I....I feel," he begins to say

"I feel guilty. I feel undeserving of you. I suffered, but others suffered more because of me. I am thankful I ran right into you though. You've saved me in more ways than one. I know I'm not the best at expressing anything because I'm afraid. I'm afraid they aren't my feelings. Waking up and seeing you lay next to me made me feel so many things. You began to wake and I swallowed my emotions deep inside. I sealed right up, and you don't deserve that. You deserve my vulnerability. Your selflessness is so amazing to witness. Especially when you're selfless for me. I know laying on a bed and getting a comfortable sleep is your favorite thing but you gave it up for me. I feel cared for and I feel worth something. You deserve the world and yet you're here with me. You're everything to me, you're my gentle angel. I don't just want to get better for you but for me too. You make me feel deserving of love, deserving of life, deserving of this." He pulls you in closer.

"Thank you baby" he says as he presses a kiss on the top of your head.

You have your eyes closed and you feel him begin to get up. You roll on to your back and watch him kneel next to you.

"Come on." He says as he wraps his metal arm under your head and the other under your knees

"You know what sounds good? Breakfast," You say as you let him carry you to bed.

"I'll make you whatever you want." He pushes the bedroom door with his foot.

"Once we get in that bed, you're not gonna want to get up." You look over his shoulder where you laid on the floor. The pillow and blanket on the floor made you frown.
He lays you down on the bed. His arms on either side of your head pressing down on the bed making you sink in just a bit. You look up at him.

"Don't worry about that anymore." He says to you looking back and forth at your eyes.
You rest your head on his metal arm.

"Okay baby ," you say looking up at him

He lowers his head, you feel him take a deep breath before pressing his lips on yours. His lips were warm and soft sending a chill down your whole body. You feel his shoulders drop just as he releases keeping his face close to yours.

"I love you," he whispers on to your lips.