Alvarado and Fischer

Chapter One

September 8, 2014

I haven't slept at all and my chest is burning. I wish I could just go back to the way things were a few weeks ago. I wouldn't even be laying here. We would probably be at a movie or getting lunch at Grover's Diner like we used to. Just thinking about the things we used to do makes me even more upset.

At first I would try to get up and be productive but end up being reminded of Will somehow and become an emotional mess. I eventually gave up on the whole "doing-something" thing so now I haven't left my room in probably 2 weeks now.

Thankfully I graduated in June earlier this year so I don't have to go to school. Since mom could never afford to put me through college I take online classes at The University of Phoenix.

I have always held a grudge against my mother for telling me she wouldn't be able to pay for my college, even though she apparently has enough money for both my siblings to go to nice schools. But now I'm so glad that I can take classes whenever I want from my computer.

The only times I can get myself to leave my room is when I go to the bathroom and even that is connected to my room so technically I'm not leaving even then.

My mom is still mad about the whole thing but brings me my meals anyways, since she knows if she didn't, I wouldn't be eating whatsoever.

After what happened I disconnected myself completely from basically everything. I have only checked my phone once just to see how many missed calls I had. 86. I had 86 missed calls, some from Leanne and Alex but most are from Will. I checked a week ago so I assume the calls have probably kept coming.

Lee and Alex are probably mad that I haven't even attempted to get in touch with them, but I really don't care. I need my space. And after what happened between me and Will, I don't want to talk to anyone.

I mostly just hope that Leanne would understand where I am coming from, and we won't end up in an argument over this.

My thoughts were interrupted by, who I assumed to be my mother, knocking at my door.

"Mom I'm not hungry. Leave me alone." I yelled as I turned onto my side so I was facing away from the door.

I really wasn't in the mood to have my mom saying I told you so Julia, or you shouldn't even be dating in the first place at this age.

I heard footsteps coming towards me and then my mom sit on the bed. I prepare myself for a lecture as I wipe my eyes.

"Mom. Seriously go-" I began as I sat up only to find not my mom sitting at the edge of my bed, but Leanne. I was so happy to see her face after so long but also extremely nervous, knowing I had some explaining to do.

"Well hello miss I can just drop of the face of the earth without warning anyone." Leanne laughed.

"Lee let me explain. I just-"

"Julia Rose Alvarado." She interrupted. "Before you start a very long and useless speech about how sorry you are for not contacting me, let me just say I am not mad at you. I was just worried sick that my best friend since first grade wouldn't even talk to me," she said slapping me on the arm and laughing. "I got frustrated after calling you a million times so I called your mom, and she told me I could come over. So I drive as fast as I can to get here, only to find you hiding in your room surrounded by used tissues and at least 300 empty Snapple bottles." I laugh lightly at that last part. She smiles proudly at the fact that she made me happy, even if it was only for a second.

"So do you wanna tell me what happened? Are you diseased? Mad at the world? Did something happen with Will?"

I shut my eyes tightly and turn away as memories of Will come rushing to my head. I have spent the past couple of days trying to keep my thoughts on things other than Will. I am assuming Leanne took the hint because she immediately wrapped her arms around me.

"He ended it. Well I ended it. I mean we ended it. It's over." I cried into her shoulder.

"Shh. It will all work out in the end. It will be okay. Everything will be alright" She repeated as she rubbed my back.

"No it won't. Nothing will ever be okay again"

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