Bear-(mxm rever series 2)

Bear 40

He'd been trying to keep his thoughts from spilling over to Heian, but...

Sighing, Ranger nuzzled his face into one of the man's soft, cool pillows. He'd come over there with the intention of being able to give himself to Heian the way the guy had done for him several times already. He hadn't thought much on what it would take, though. His stamina, which was normally endless, was completely drained after only thirty minutes. 

He tried to move onto his stomach to get a little more comfortable, but a jolt of pain from his backside quickly had him rethinking his life choices. 

Of all the things that would cripple me. I've broken so many bones, jumped out of trees and houses...

Groaning, he bit his mental tongue, praying that Heian hadn't heard him complaining. He didn't want to sound whiny, especially after the guy had gone through so much work and pain to be able to bottom for him. 

I can work on it more tomorrow. I should be healed by then. 

Hearing footsteps, Ranger glanced toward the door but didn't move in any other way, fearing more pain. 

"I've finished cleaning up what we used... and put them away," Heian said as he sat on the edge of the bed next to him and reached out to gently sift his fingers through his hair. 

I didn't hear you slide them back under the bed, though. 

"That is because I didn't. They are put away somewhere else, because we won't be using them again," Heian said, making Ranger open his eyes abruptly, not having realized he'd let them drift closed with the attention. 

He forced himself up onto his elbow, ready to argue, but couldn't make it any higher as he quickly hunched over and tried, but failed, to blink back a few tears. 

Heian's hands quickly found their way to Ranger's shoulders, then gently coaxed him back down until he was lying on his belly. 

I can still do it. It'll just take a while to get used to, Ranger thought to him as he felt Heian gently press something cold between the crease of his backside. Pain immediately shot up his spine, making him tense and give out an absolutely pathetic whine. 

"No," was the man's firm response as he carefully rubbed numbing cream against his torn skin. 

Ranger fought himself not to flinch at all, but it did seriously hurt. 

"I will be the bottom from here on out. I don't want you trying anything else here," he said as he tapped Ranger's hole softly. 

You can't stop me if I want to...

"No, I can't. I don't want to stop you from what you want to do, Ranger. But if what you want to do is hurt yourself for me, for something you think I need to have, then you will force my hand to punish you," Heian said, making Ranger turn his head on the pillow so that he could see him better. 

He couldn't think of a way the man could really punish him for trying to get his body used to bottoming. 

"I can punish you, by saying that I will never, for as long as we are together, allow you to bottom for me," Heian said sternly, drawing a frown to Ranger's lips and a crease to his brow. 

His stubborn side was livid, but his backside was relieved. 

Feeling Heian remove his fingers from his private area and get up to wash them, Ranger turned his head and sulked into the pillow. The embarrassment was beginning to sink in at that point. His boyfriend, the one he thought he'd never even have since he'd never even liked guys, told him that he would never let him bottom for him. He knew that he'd rushed into the situation super fast and hadn't listened to Heian when he'd said to start very small... but still.