Dear diary,
I am going to turn 20 soon. I can't believe I won't be a teen in a few weeks.
I can't believe I survived those highschool years. I'm glad that is over.
I've seen so many of my friends be in relationships but I wasn't lucky enough to find someone. It takes courage to be in love.
Sometimes, I wonder if I was meant to be this way. Am I meant to be alone? and can someone ever truly love me as I am? Is that why i am so afraid of love?
I think about how it feels to just sit and stare at someone who you're in love with. Someone who should love you back with every inch of their being. And you know, sometimes that's scary because you know that even when they do love you, they might not mean it.
Not in the same way that you want them too.
And what if they don't want to spend time with you? What if they only care about themselves?
The last thought hurts more than the rest.
So I decide that love isn't worth the risk. That it isn't worth the heartbreak.
Because, in the end, that's all it comes down to. Heartbreak and pain.
YOU ARE READING
sincerely, yours
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