Everything About You and I (1D fan fiction, Specifically Louis)

Part 5

The small dark room was filled with thick tense air and the feeling of foreboding danger began to eat away at my composure. My collected and calm exterior was beginning to give way to the ever growing mental frustration. Not only did the woman in front infuriate me to the very core but I was even more annoyed with myself.

How could I have honestly thought that a magazine would want to hear more about my work than my shitty mess of a personal life? What am I supposed to do now? Ever since my incident I have been more than a little fragile mentally and emotionally.

Hard complicated knots wound up in my back and tremors ran through me causing my slick palms to quake. I stared up at a pair of round chocolate eyes that danced with a mixture of amusement and pity. Crashing against my chest and pounding in my ears my heart quickened pace. The walls surrounding me felt like they were closing in. Not now... I really didn't need this now... Deep breath in and out.

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And I'm calm. I zoned back into the interview knowing that my ever curious companion had just asked me yet another deeply personal and equally infuriating question. She gazed at me with baited breath and now I was totally going to burst her bubble. Ha serves the bitch right!

"I'm sorry could you repeat the question?" the menacing smile deflated. I believe that could be called a win of epic proportions!

" I said you spent a while in the hospital a few weeks back would you like to go into detail about that?"

"Nope" I smiled brightly at her. The previously amused brown eyes were now clouded with confusion. She had control of this interview long enough. If I was going to survive this relatively unscathed then I needed to do something besides sit here and shout mentally at her. " That is a private matter all that you need to know is that I am now healthy"

**flashback***

I sat in our master bathroom leaning against the cool marble tub. My hands shook rattling the pill bottle in my hands. The clattering of pills against plastic rung through my silent flat. Louis was going to be home in an hour if I took it now I would be calm by the time he walked through the door.

Technically I had already taken my dosage for today but I was having an attack and unless I wanted to blackout I was going to need a little help. Fuck hormones! They really like to screw with you. Having anxiety disorder was never an issue until recently. Usually I was totally under control, without the help of medication, but when your hormones are raging and you can't keep down your lunch it gets a little tricky. My heart was racing and I could feel heat pooling in my cheeks. 

I stared intently at the wall infront of me hoping to slow my body down. My vision began to blur with every shallow breath I drew. The striped paper began to grow fuzy as tears slid down my hot cheeks. Rattling from the bottle ceased as my muscles tensed into stillness. Black curtains came in front of my eyes engulfing me into darkness.

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Slowly I came back into myself. I blinked a few times as I tried to figure out where I was, this bed was obviously not mine considering the sheets were white and I had banned that from our house (long story). Harsh blinding light came in through the window through the white room. White was everywhere and that's when I figured it out. I was in the hospital. 

Brilliant, really nice going Briar! The paps are going to have a fucking field day with this one, "Pop-star's girlfriend rushed into Hospital"! Heaven help me. 

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The doctors helped sort me out changed my medication to one that could combat my new triggers. Thank god no more random fits of hysteria. I really will never understand how Louis manages to put up with this. No one needs this in their life, especially him

** End of Flashback***

I fixed my gaze on the woman's face. To be honest I'd never really taken a good look at her, too busy brooding over my own misfortunes I suppose. She was a pretty typical looking woman long hair that fell in bleach blonde wave past her shoulders. Her face was pale and thin, not unhealthily so, and her frame was long and lean. Her eyes were a deep brown framed with thick lashes. All around she  was actually quite an attractive girl but it didn't make me like her anymore. The interesting thing about her eyes told you nothing about what she was thinking and yet everything about what she was feeling. Louis always complained that I could turn mine off and on.

" So about your show," Oh my god finally was all I could think. We are finally actually going to discuss what I came to. " what was it like to be in a television studio after all this time on stage?"

I smiled at her, maybe if I seemed really eager and co-opperated then I could keep her out of my personal life. "It's been sort of crazy, but I really love it"

***** Flashback*****

I walked up to the big warehouse like building that was going to be my new home for the next couple of months. Recently I had been asked to do a show that sort of like the british spin-off of FRIENDS. Needless to say I was ridiculously excited about it! My heart was umping adrenaline through my body as I approached the doors to set. After months or read throughs and meetings we were finally going to see the world that our characters lived in.

My characters name was Emma (you know Ross and Rachel's daughter) she moves to London and meets this crazy group of people. They become friends pretty much instantly. Its just such a great opportunity. This is one of the few things in my life that my mother actually approved of too. EVERYTHINGS COMING UP ROSES! Thank goodness my fellow cast members appreciate the Broadway references especially since they seem to happen quite often.

After a full day I filming I can honestly say that screen acting is much harder than it looks. I literally had to relearn how to act, I mean I always thought of myself as pretty versatile but the subtlety was really not something I was expecting. The whole process was exhausting but I really couldn't have been happier.

*** End of Flashback***

"So all in all it was a really cool experience. I am so glad audiences in both the UK and America have fallen in love with it as much as I have." I finished my story. I could feel the knots in my back loosen, maybe, just maybe this was actually going to turn out alright.

" And how does Louis feel about you coming into your own fame?"

" He's been really supportive like he always is. I mean I know he was worried initially because its was a big transition from being relatively obscure to being recognized at the grocery store but we've managed to work through it." Looks like I spoke or rather thought too soon. Once again I have been reminded that this is gonna be a long day!