ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ ⤿ ᴢʜᴏɴɢ ᴄʜᴇɴʟᴇ

you don't always have to stay together with the one you love

hello love :)
It's been a year and a half since we met at the dog's park. You came with your neighbour's dog who was almost as big as you and it's still so funny seeing you struggle trying to control it. I was sitting at the bench near you with our little daughter Daegal, well she's not that little anymore but still a baby in my eyes. I sometimes wonder if we'd be married by now, how many kids we'd have and what kind of house will we be living in. I'm sure you'll choose those little cottages far from the city but not too far away from people. You've always loved countryside especially where you can see the ocean and smell the mixture of the sea and spring breeze. So I bought us one, it was kinda old when I first bought it but the view was too beautiful to say no, it reminded me of you. The renovation is not done yet but I can't wait to move in with Daegal :)
I'm thinking of planting some flowers in the little garden it has, it also have benches and table where you can sit outside and look at the ocean while eating or reading, something you'll definitely love! The neighbours seems nice too, there's this couple with their daughter and you both have a very similar personality, she always comes running out when she sees me checking the renovation and sometimes play with Daegal, Daegal seems to like her too.
I do have to apologise for not visiting you often as before, I realised there was so much more stuff I need to do after buying the house. I'll come by as soon as I'm done moving in. I'll bring your favourite flowers too and dressed up Daegal in the clothes you made for her

I know I should stopped doing this, writing to you. The boys always get worried and told me to stop it every time they see me write to you. But I just can't stop it, I think it has become a habit. Not gonna lie I do missed receiving your letters a lot, but what can I say. You know people would looked at me with that pity eyes and I just wanna pull their eyes out sometimes, it's like their gaze are asking if I regretted meeting you and what not. Even if I have known beforehand what was to come, I will still give my everything to meet you again. My first love and last. They have no idea how much being your first love meant to me, to be the first and last that held your hand and dance with you in the rain, to be each other's first and last kiss, to be the first and last shoulder you lay your head on. I hope I mean a lot to you too :)
So let's promise to find each other in the next life.

Chenle sighed putting the pen down and folded the paper, putting in the box named 'to my first'.
"Come on Daegal let's go visit mommy" he said holding her leash guiding her outside "Where you going Chenle?" Mark asked drinking the water "Oh we were just about to visit her wanna come along?" the younger one asked which Mark declined "I'm fine I went few days ago" "Ah okay let's go Daegal"

"How are you love? I'm sorry I haven't visit lately. To make it up to you I came with your favourite flowers" he said laying down the bouquet of tulips, "I was gonna bring Mark but this is better oh and this" bringing out the box he smiled and looked up "These ones are from the past two months so you can take your time reading them" putting the box near the grave he lay down on the grass and looked at the gloomy sky. "You know days like these, I really missed you. I didn't think I could go on this far without you but I'm doing pretty well with Daegal, I bet she misses you a lot too. She would sometimes go to the kitchen in the morning searching for you to give her some carrots. I know people think it's not good for me to be like this, but I think it's a lot better than pretending to forget everything and move on like you were never there. They told me to go on dates and meet new people, I don't need that no I just can't do that. You will be my first and last just like how I am to you" he smiled looking at the promise ring in finger.

Perhaps this was his happy ending somehow. Doing the things you both used to do definitely made him missed you more and more but as long as it made him feel like you're still there, he doesn't mind.